I sat on the couch staring at the wall in silence since the place was silent. My thoughts were racing through my head, each one more intense than the last. I had the impression that I was stranded in a storm and couldn't get out. I was constantly thinking too much, and it was slowly breaking me.
When things were hard, I had always been the kind to withdraw inside myself. Without having to explain my feelings and views to other people, it was simpler to handle my problems on my own. However, it felt like I was drowning in my own silence these days, and even the comfort I usually had from being alone myself was fading.
My boyfriend, Jungkook, has been really understanding with me. He saw the shifts in me, the times I hardly spoke, the nights I spent staring at the ceiling, and the way I distanced myself. I pushed him away when he reached out, not wanting to bring him into my chaos. Though I didn't know how to let him in, I knew he was worried.
After yet another exhausting day of fighting my thoughts, I found myself lost in stillness on the couch one evening. With quiet steps, Jungkook arrived home from work at his flat. He watched me for a moment while pausing in the doorway before coming closer. "Y/n" he said softly, his voice cutting through the mental haze. "Can we talk?". I noticed the worry written on his face as I looked up at him. I gave a nod, but said nothing. He took a seat next to me, not too close, giving me room yet still in my presence.
"I've noticed that you've been really quiet lately" cautiously said Jungkook. "I'm also concerned for you. All I want is to know what's going on" I inhaled deeply as I searched for the right words to describe my feelings. "I am sorry, Jungkook. My intention is not to push you away. It's simply that everything seems so heavy at the moment. My thoughts are running nonstop, and I have no idea how to stop them" Warm and soothing, his hand went out and grasped mine. "Y/n, you don't have to face this alone. I am here for you. If you'll let me, I'd like to help"
I blinked away the tears that had welled up in my eyes, feeling both relieved and guilty. "I have no idea where to begin. I can't seem to get rid of the constant noise in my head. And I hate putting my problems to you"
"You're not a burden" Jungkook asserted. "Remember that we're all in this together? I want to be there for you no matter what you're going through. even if it's just spending quiet time with you" The walls I had erected around myself were shattered by his comments, and I felt all of my emotions fall apart. My eyes began to well up with tears that I was unable to control any longer. I sobbed as Jungkook drew me into his arms and held me. I had been holding all of my emotions inside, and it felt like a barrier had broken. I blurted out, "I'm sorry" in between sobbing. "I'm so sorry, Jungkook" He stroked my hair and whispered, "Shh, it's okay" "Apologizing is not necessary. Simply let it out"We stayed that way for some time, his presence bringing me back to earth as I released all the feelings I had been holding inside. My tears eventually stopped, and I took some distance and looked up to him. I saw love and understanding in his eyes, and I had a spark of hope. "I'm grateful" I murmured gently. "For showing up. for dealing with me"
"I'll never give up on you" he said in a firm voice. "Y/n, we'll handle this together. Step by step, please" Jungkook made it a point to support me in the areas that I most needed in the days that followed. If I wasn't ready to communicate, he didn't force me, but he was there, quietly supporting me. His presence served as a reassuring reminder that I wasn't alone as he would sit with me and hold my hand or just be there.
Along with the fresh air and soothing discussion, our walks helped me relax. He pushed me to follow my interests, no matter how tiny—reading a book, watching TV, or just relaxing in the park. I slowly began to feel like myself again. I smiled at Jungkook as we sat on the balcony, watching the sunset. "Jungkook, thank you. For everything. Without you, I don't know what I would do" With a smile that mirrored the warmth of the fading light, he smiled back. "You don't need to thank me, y/n. I cherish you. And no matter what, I'll always be here for you"
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