To Breathe Again

Chapter 53 - From Darkness to Light

Sammy's POV

I've had enough. It's been another month and I want my fucking Angel back. She's still here but still very distant and I know it's even bothering Tony. "What can we do? We need to help her. She's doing well with everything else. He's healed, she's working again, she's reading and spending time on the patio, she laughs with Tony, she's just not with us." Trent said.

"I know. It's like she refuses to let herself be vulnerable again." I replied.

"I can't let 'er go guys. I need 'er and I ain't never really needed nobody. But she's my fuckin' heart and so is that boy. He's like the son I always wanted and damn if I'm givin' him up either." Grant said.

We want them for the rest of our lives. She's our better half, each one of us, and we can't live without her. We refuse to let her live her life without knowing true love. The only way we're going to be able to do this is together. After talking things through a little longer we put our plan into motion.

A few days later, I go to the porch where she's sitting in the swing, reading, with her legs tucked under her and a glass of wine in her hand. She's the image of beauty, my angel, my light. Trent likes to call her Phoenix because of her undying fiery spirit and strength but when I look at her, I feel peace and calm. I can't help but smile when her eyes meet mine.

"Hi Angel." I say.

"Hi." She replies quietly, softly smiling at me.

"Me and the boys would like to show you something." I say and she puts her phone down and shuts off the screen. I smile at her. "I'd like to take you somewhere, if you're up for it. I know you're still a little sore."

"No, I'm not sore any longer. I would really like that. It's turning cooler so it would be nice to get out for a while. The doctors said I need to move more so I don't get stiff." She replied.

Michelle's POV

I know I've been distant but I'm just not sure what to do. I want to trust them. I want to be with them again. I want to be who they want me to be but I just don't know how. I do love them so much. I think about them constantly. I've read the last sentence in my book four times because my mind keeps wandering to each one of their faces. I'll never forget the relief I felt when I realized that they were really there that day they saved me. When Sammy spoke, it just clicked. I knew it was real. At that moment, I felt like if I was going to die, I could do so happily knowing I was in their arms. Then to see my sweet boy again. I feel so guilty when I look at him. I didn't protect him like a mother should and then I feel so broken and numb that I'm not the mom he had before. I want to be, I just feel fuzzy all the time.

They want to take me somewhere on the property so I decide to try a little harder today. It's been a while since I've dressed up. I've been going back to work but I've been working remotely. Evidently Chester had been working with an oversees company when I went missing and was in the hospital. He and his wife were in China and didn't find out about what happened to me until they got back. I had been home for a week or so. He asked me what I wanted to do and was happy to let me work virtually until I was able to start coming back into the office. As far as my family, my dad had tried to call me but Clark had smashed my phone. He didn't have any of the guys numbers and without Tony, there wasn't anyone he could call to talk to me until now. He figured I would reach out when I was able. He didn't think anything of not talking to me for a couple of months. That was normal for us. Once he finally heard from Tony, he was here the next day doting on me and trying to do everything for me. The guys had to hold him back from carrying me all over the house. My dad's not a big guy but she's strong as hell and would've done it had it not been for Grant doing it for him. All my uncles, aunts, and cousins had been instructed to give me time before visiting but sent cards and flowers. They were all in my room when I arrived. It was a sweet surprise. They've visited in turn since I've been here.