Blue Lock - I'll Make Her Mine (Bachira x OC)

Chapter 2

It's been 3 days already since we came to blue lock, today we were doing training exercise. Running all over the place & practicing our skills more, i was already good at this. I used to train like this when i was back in school, so it honestly wasn't even that hard for me at all. Although i still get fatigued, that hasn't changed. Whenever i do exercise my body gets heated & sweaty & i get fatigued as well, so my breathing often gets heavy & i have to take a breather after a certain amount of time. But i'll improve it, i'll get better at it so i won't get fatigued that easily. I mean getting fatigued from doing an activity is unavoidable but it can be improved, for the last 3 days we been doing nothing but stamina running. It's kinda tough keeping up with everyone, but some of them are quite easy to catch up to, it's a mixture of both honestly. We basically did every exercise that we could, running, jumping, kicking the ball around, etc. After hours of training it was time to eat, the annoucement let us know where we had to go & get our food to eat for the day. Our side dishes change depending on our rankings, gin gagamaru was eating without using his chopsticks which honestly surprised me, i guess he doesn't use utensiles & asashi tried to steal some of his food. It was kinda funny watching them run around, i ate my own food but it wasn't the best. After we finished eating we headed back to our dorm rooms to sleep but i couldn't fall asleep no matter how hard i tried, i was honestly to anxious to sleep. My body felt uncomfortable & wouldn't sit still, so i decided to get up & got for some training

"Ugh... can't sleep.... my body won't sit still... i need to wear my energy out maybe then i'll fall asleep..."

Suddenly a soccer ball was kicked my way, i noticed it & placed my feet on top of it stopping it from rolling away.

"A soccer ball....?"

"Yuki~ You going solo training?"

"Bachira, why are you still awake?"

"I could ask you the same question little monster~ why aren't you asleep?"

"..... My body won't sit still, i'm still to anxious & have alot of energy"

"Oh? Train with me then, one on one~ i'll help you wear you down until you can sleep then~"

"....."

"I'm not taking no for an answer so you're doing it with me either way~"

His persistant he just stuck his tongue out at me & didn't even let me say no to him, but i might as well do it. Gotta wear myself out somehow so might as well play with him until i feel tired i guess. We headed off the the training field, bachira took the lead & held the ball.

"Bachira..."

"Hm?"

"Why did yu pass the ball to me that day? you said it's because you thought i'd hit kira? why you'd think that?"

"Because there's a monster inside me too"

Before i could even question what he ment he rushed towards me it startled me at first, i wasn't expecting it. He caught me by complete surprise.

"It only comes out & talks when i'm playing soccer, steal the goal. Move around more"

Bachira's actually quite good, i tried to take the ball away from him but he wasn't letting me. I stumbled backwards a little because he was pressing on to me while keeping the ball to himself, he turned to face me a bit as he started moving again.

"But in that moment, the monster inside me said pass it to Yuki. She has... a monster inside her too~"

He caught me by surprise with that sentence again, my body froze up when he said that. He keeps saying i have a monster inside me but i don't know what that means, bachira slipped past me when he saw me froze up. Kicking the ball further & taking a slight distance from me.

"Call it intuition, i play soccer while listening to that voice. That's all, you can hear it right? the monsters voice?"

He turned to face me once more & it snapped me back into reality when he did, pulling me back into my composure. Honestly i was curious about that monster he keeps talking about i wanted to know the true form of it maybe that could help me survive this place & become better.

"I'm.... not quite understanding what you mean with that. What..... monster is it?"

"You're obsession & you're desire to win, you become a complete different person when you let yourself go & be free my little monster~ combining those those makes you a powerful monster. All those other amazing soccer players have a monster inside them too, i bet that's the sign of a striker. That's what i believe, so yuki i'm glad that i came to blue lock. Since i could meet you~"

".... But i'm not a monster..."

"Not yet you aren't, which is why i'm gonna help you release it & become even stronger. You have it you just have to let it loose & set it free. Those chains are holding you down it's quite heavy for you to carry it by yourself, i can see it. I want to break those chains & set you free~"

"...... i can't"

"Why? why are you holding it back & preventing it from being released? you would have so much more freedom if you simply let it out, are you afraid of it? The monster can help you & make you stronger you know & you're obsession too. There's no need to be afraid of it"

".........."

Bachira doesn't know anything about my history, why i try to keep my obsession & desperations in check. If i tell him he might start thinking like the rest of them too, maybe he'll end up leaving or something after having to witness it.

"Little monster? Hey why you making that face?"

"If i tell you the reason why, you woulnd't honestly believe it. The things i did when i used to play soccer ended in disaster, i'm trying to hold it back & control it because..... bachira i'm...-"

Bachira suddenly kicked the ball towards me cutting me off, he shuckled & stuck his tongue out at me once more.

"I'll be happy to hear it, but wanna go again? i don't want you to feel force into telling me but i am curious on why you're keeping it locked up instead of releasing it. I don't keep mines locked away, quite the opposite really, i just listen to the voices & release it all on the field~"

"Bachira..."

"Come on play with me~ but not with that face, smile my little monster~ curve you're pretty little lips into a smile like this hehe~"

"Yea, Alright..."

I placed my feet above the ball & took in a deep breath a bit, if i'm gonna get better at soccer then bachira is right. I have to let some of it out, maybe not all of it but a little bit. I rushed forward with the ball & he tried to counter it by taking it from me, but i flipped the ball slightly & maneuvered it in the other direction away from him. He quickly noticed it & countered it, by taking it back by force. Out of impulse when i saw him do that, i think i snapped slightly & kicked it with force while he was still close to me, my eyes gave a feint glow when i did. I think i tried to do a direct shot by positioning myself infront of him & trying to create an opening, once again when i get into the zone my mind just goes blank & my body reacts on it's own. So for a split second i kinda lose myself a little when i get serious. He stumbled back a little when i did that because i kicked the ball when he was still at a close distance, which honestly made a loud thud noise & he ended up catching it with his feet again which made him stumble backwards a little more but he kept his balance just so he wouldn't trip due to the impact of the force. He noticed when the obsession took possession of me for a split second but snapped me back to reality when i hit bachira. He seemed happy when i did but then got dissapointed when he saw it get locked up again.

"Yea see just like that~ i like that look on you're eyes but you're still holding it back, you need to release it & let it go entirely. Come on little monster, it's me you're playing with now. Don't be afraid to go all out on me~"

"Oh shit, sorry that was... a bit to hard..."

Bachira shuckled & let out a softly sigh, not out of dissapointment though. Just out of admiration for me he seemed pleased & happy.

"Don't apologise, you're in blue lock now. You're gonna have to let it all out soon enough, come on do it again but this time don't restrain it. Plus you belong to me now so you're gonna have to do it regardless"

"But bachira im...-"

He cut me off once more.

"I'll force it out of you if i have to my little monster, when you're with me i'll make sure to make you shine bright~ you can't keep you're monster locked up forever, now come on let me release it for you trust me & lean on me. let me break those chains for you~"

Bachira was really determined to make me lose it again for some reason, i don't know why but his really hung  up on me. He was about to kick the ball again but we got interupted by the announcement coming from the speakers.

"We're finished compiling the data from the past 3 days stamina tests, please return to you're rooms we will present the new rankins"

"Aw i was starting to have fun with you too~"

"......Yea..."

Training's over i guess, we headed back to the rooms & as expected everyone was here already. 

"Hey Yuki! check it out! i've gone up alot from #300 look 275!"

"Oh shit, nice gurimo"

"And you too, look!"

When i checked my number it was at 274, gurimo was higher then me. Ego appeared on the screen again as he started talking to us.

"Nice work everyone, you lumps of talents. Are you enjoying life on blue lock?"

Majority of them complained when he asked that, the food was terrible & they complained that they couldn't get better at soccer in this place like this, to which ego responded to they're complaint.

"The reason it's shitty here is because you're all so shitty at soccer idiots"

He started explaining a little more about blue lock, just to give us a better understanding of it. Basically the facility is composed of 5 wings, team B through Z. 25 of them are split into groups of 5 & are living together in each wing sharing rooms & what not, except baths of course & we aren't being watched while having either lunch or taking a bath. Since kira got kicked out of blue lock there's now currently 275 of us in blue lock, we're split into terms of ranks ranks 1 through 11 are team B. 12 through 22 are team C & so forth, our team Z is the lowest in the rank at the moment in wing #5, we're made of the bottom tier in this wing. Those in the upper ranks are enjoying good food & training in the top wing & leading a lifestyle befitting a top striker, who ever is best at soccer in blue lock, is the king... or queen for me. If we wanted a good life then we needed to win & boost ourselves up, so now it begins. Blue lock's first selection, all of us in wing 5 will have a round robin tournament for all 5 teams. After the final match the top 2 teams will clear the selection so it's basically a survival match, Kiyoma & the others started to question about how all of this would play out.

"So all 11 of us in team Z count as one team? even though we're all forwards?"

"That means we'll just have to play all the other positions, you can  be the goalie!"

"Knock it off, i'd do it if i have to"

"Then i'll be center forward"

They all started deciding what positions they wanted to be in among each other, a team made of 11 forwards? normally that would never happen. But ego told us that normally soccer is about scoring points & making a goal, so having 11 forwards makes perfect sense. He told us to play soccer from the starting point, rebuild it from zero in our heads & go from there. Easier said then done, this guy is insane too & because i'm putting restrictions on myself i highly doubt that i'll be of any good use here, not unless i release it & let it all out. Ego told us to just let loose & to not trust our common sense that we grew up with, he wanted us to throw it all away & pound this new concept into our  brains. What japans needs right now is to win the world cup, the team work of 11 people is just for one person to be a hero. He wants us to surpass all of them & use our skills & abilities to the fullest, that's the kind of sport soccer is. 

"So are you ready for battle?"

Honestly it felt like i was just being forced into getting better & letting it all out, that's not the problem for me though. The problem is that i'm just afraid of the outcome, because of what happened to me in the past i'm afraid of what consequences that will bring to blue lock, even if ego says it's fine to let it all out & go nuts with it. And then bachira is trying to do the same thing too, trying to make me release it all, these people are going to be my teammates now. If i screw up even once it's all over for me, i cant afford to lose it & make them fear me again i'm not dangerous or scary it's just that when my obsession & desire to win takes over i turn into a complete different person. I both like it & hate it, bachira got my attention when he noticed i was lost in my own thoughts & clenching my fists tightly. He took my wrist & raised it up towards him a bit, he took a hold of my hand with his & started stroking the top of my hand with his fingers trying to calm my nerves & tension.

"See? i told you little monster, you're gonna have to let it all out. You're in blue lock now so you can't be locking it all up inside you, set yourself free~"

"Bachira....."

Bachira was even more intimidating then ego, it's like his wanting me to do it & his enjoying it. His trying to make me snap & lose it on purpose, but if i do that then whose going to snap me back to reality after it's over? bachira forced me to stop clenching my fist so tightly & made my hand relax itself again. He could tell something was bothering me but wasn't trying to force me to tell him, at least not yet. Eventually we began to decide positons once more, they started playing rock paper scissors over it which i thought was childish but funny. I decided to just be forward, might as well start pulling my punches, one way or the other i have to survive. So for the first blue lock selection round, the 5 teams in each wing will have a round robin tournament. At the end of the 10 matches the top two teams will get to remain here & the bottom 3 will be eliminated & all they're team members will be forced to leave blue lock, upon leaving they'll lose the right to represent japan. 

"Fuck.... so we  have to win no matter what..."

"Hehehe~ Yep~"

Ego kept explaining the rules & such, players from the 3 losing teams will have a chance for a comeback once the matches are over each team will have a scoring king, who ever scores the most goal on each team. Gets to move to the next round, if there's a tie between each member of the same team they'll use a fair play point system & who ever has the least penalty points will be the winner. Our goals or the enemy's goal the first selection will test our destiny as strikers, this battle was to rebuild soccer from zero. The first match is in 2 hours Team X vs Team Z, after that the meeting was over & we went to our locker rooms. Surprisingly despite the fact that i'm a female they let me share one with the guys, not that i care anyways, my mind was racing with today's match anyways. I was both nervouse & excited at the same time, can't believe i'm going to have to actually go all out for once in my life. This is going to end so bad & then i'll be kicked out because of it, but those are just negative thoughts clouding my head. I don't want to think about that right now, wataru kuon started making a plan for everyone to agree on.

"For the first match we'll use this formation as decided by the rock paper scissors"

Alright so Team X are ranked 243 & 253 but we didn't have to make a more detail strategy, i won & decided to be the center forward. So Wataru wanted everyone to focus around me, oh boy that made me nervous. That just ment that everyone will be entirely focused on me & what i do, so if i snap & broke my composure i'll get fucked. I have to try & be a team player with everyone again & actually know when to pass the ball when i need to instead of being obsessive & desperate, i was leaning agaisnt the locker as he was explaing the whole strategy to everyone.

"Got it~ my little monster gets all the attention~ she already has all of mines though so try not to take her from me to much~"

"Bachira... no..."

"Hehehe~ i'm just kidding.... maybe~"

"Give me a break, can we really win with yuki as our foundation?"

Bachira glared at gurimo when he said that & scoffed at him.

"Hey, dont start doubting her just yet, she'll do just fine just give her the ball & let her lead"

".... Ugh bachira... you dont know anything...."

I really need to tell bachira the reasons for my restrictions, maybe then he'll understand why i'm holding back so much.

"We only played rock paper scissors because everyone wanted to be a forward"

"Damn i wanted to play deffense.."

"We just gotta win right? piece of cake"

"No complainets here"

"Well don't screw up then, you do know how to goalkeep right?"

Guess i'll have no choice, i gotta win the match regardless of what happens. I didn't expect for us to start this quickly, i'm not exactly doubting myself. I just don't want to get disqualified if i do anything stupid or reckless, so i have to be careful on how much i can let my desire to win take over my body. They gave us another uniform to wear on top of the spandex we were wearing, i lifted up my shirt & just rubbed my face with the fabric of it & groaned loudly into it. No one in this room knows of my restrictions or why i'm holding it back & it's fustrating. I really want to tell them why but at the same time i don't want to ruin my reputation & career, this is a mess. I'm being forced into a corner that i'm afraid of doing but at the same time i don't want to back out. It was both exciting & fustrating my heart was racing. None of the other guys seemed to noticed except for bachira, i think i was feeling more excitment then fear.

"...... Fuck me i hope this doesn't turn into disaster again, i'll give it my best but i hope i don't screw things over.... please, let me keep my composure for as much as i can... i don't want to lose & break just yet"

I didn't realise it at first but bachira was starring at me when i had my shirt up, not that it was revealing anything but the jump suit was a bit tight on me so i guess he was either starring at my stomach or my chest when i did that. I noticed him starring at immediately pulled my shirt back down covering whatever he was starring at, i growled at him & pouted slightly to which he responded when he saw it. I think he giggled under his breath & then he stuck his tongue out at me with a feint blush on his cheeks.