Violet Eyes

Chapter 54

Later that day, Uraraka concocted her evil plan. She was doing a grocery run for her parents, inviting only her girlfriend and Todoroki to join her. Hitoshi and I weren't complete idiots, both knowing exactly why she'd excluded us from her shopping trip. Honestly, I wasn't sure if she could have made it more obvious. 

We were promptly left in the living room of an empty house. 

"She thinks we need to talk about it," I said, breaking the heavy moment of silence that had descended upon us as soon as the front door shut. I couldn't stand it, hating when things were awkward between Hitoshi and me. Everything in my life would feel off-kilter until we fixed it. 

"She's right." I watched carefully as he shifted in the armchair, resting his elbows on his knees. He looked even more exhausted than usual in his crumpled hoodie and black joggers. A frown took over my face at the sight. 

"She doesn't have to be," I said suddenly, surprising him and causing his brows to rise. I trudged on, determined to say my piece. "We can forget about it. I broke up with you and you slept with someone else, so did I. It's not a big deal. We can pretend it never happened." 

His face fell more with every word that left my mouth and I couldn't figure out why. Shouldn't he be happy that I wanted to forget about it? Should he be thrilled that I wasn't breaking up with him? So, why does he look so upset? 

"I know you, Iz. I know you won't just be able to forget about it." He sounded resigned, ready to accept his fate. 

I shook my head, redirecting my attention to my hands in my lap. "I'm not breaking up with you over this. I love you, Hitoshi. It doesn't change that." 

"Are you mad?" 

It was a simple question, one I should have been able to answer easily. Was I mad that he'd slept with Monoma? I guess there was some anger there whenever I thought about it, but no, I didn't think I was mad at him. I was just tired. 

"No," I said finally. "Just hurts a little." 

He released a breath and I watched as his head fell into his hands. "I'm sorry, Iz. I'm so fucking sorry. If I could go back and change it, I would in a heartbeat. I was just hurt, and depressed, and-" 

"I get it," I said, cutting him off.  I didn't want the details, the less I knew about it the better. "You wanted to get me back, I probably deserved it." 

"No, you didn't." 

I waved him off, in the mood to play the blame game. We could go back and forth all day and not get anywhere. "I only have one question, I need you to answer it honestly, okay?" 

He nodded once and I looked away. 

"When did it stop?" I needed to know how long it went on, what the overlap looked like. Had Hitoshi come back from visiting me, only to fall into Monoma's arms? 

I wasn't watching for his reaction, but I could hear him shifting in his chair. "I tried to break it off before we visited you the first time," he paused, taking a breath. "But then I found out about you, Kirishima, and Bakugou, and I just...." 

He didn't need to finish his story, I knew what happened next. 

"So, you slept with him before and after telling me you loved me, got it." I hadn't meant to sound so bitter, I was trying to move past it, but I couldn't help it. It cut deep and all my hurt was spilling from the wound. 

"Iz-" 

I shook my head, not wanting to hear it. "It's fine. We weren't together. I rejected you, so it's really my own fault. I can't be upset about it. It's... it's fine."