I choose to be goofy
It's how I feel validated
After my entire life being boring
I'm finally not
Finally something
But it's a bit too much
They don't know who I used to be
They don't know the change I've gone through
The glowups I've gathered
I didn't like who I used to be
But I still miss him
The old me
The "no cares" me
The "cocky" and "self centered" me
But I was tired of it all
I stayed to myself
Didn't talk to anyone
Didn't push myself
Stayed in my comfort zone
But now it's different
Now I think I'm finally me
The me I was always meant to be
Even if some of it is a persona
I feel right making others happy
I feel important
Like I matter
It fills me with validation
I just want acceptance
And I enjoy doing what I do
But I'm still misunderstood
I make jokes when I'm sad
I smile when it's not how I feel
I push my feelings aside
I treat myself poorly
Despite my many glowups
It's so hard for me to treat myself with respect
It really is
And that's my confession
I feel like me, but I also don't
Part of me feels fake
But also the realest I've ever been
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Stale Words
Poetry𝚂𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚎 𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 is an ongoing book and collection of poems and sonnets made by me, inspired by my thoughts, dreams, and personal experiences. As someone who lives with depression and anxiety, a lot of my thoughts are bound to not be very pleas...
