Harry Styles Fanfiction - Remember Me?

Chapter 294

October 2021
**YOUR POV**
I smiled, looking at the tattoo, the beautiful font Harry chose for her name to be tattooed on her dad's skin forever.
It made me think of what she would look like now. Who she would look more similar to and I bet it would've been Harry.
Violet would have been a little more than two years old now. I missed her so much.

I reached out my hand and gently traced with my finger along the lines of the tattooed letters on his skin, not realizing Harry woke up from it.

„Baby?" He asked tiredly when he turned to lay on his other side to face me.

„Sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up." I apologized as he rubbed his eyes so he could see better.

„No, it's okay. Why are you still awake?" He wondered.

„Can't sleep." I shrugged my shoulders.

„Why's that?"

„Not sure. Just thinkig a lot." I told him.

„About?" He smiled at me so lovingly and attentively looking into my eyes.

„Almost exactly three years ago, we lost Violet." I eventually said, making him tilting his head at me and cupping my cheek.

„I just saw her name on your arm and...I don't know, kind of imagined our lives together with her." I told him while he listened carefully. „She would've been two already. I kust really miss her, Haz."

„My love..." He sighed, pressing a kiss to my forehead. „I miss her too. Everyday." He said, softly running his thumb over my cheek.

„She was our miracle baby and then I lost her."

„Hey, sweetheart, it's not your fault, I told you that many times."

„But still. I feel like I could've done something." I admitted to him.

„You're her mother, of course you think that, but the truth is, you couldn't have, nobody could have, my love."

„I know, you're right...it's all just been so frustrating. You know...we've tried for three years and nothing happened ever since it happened with Violet. It feels like becoming a mother is so far away."

„It's frustrating, I know, love. Believe me, I hate seeing you so sad about it. I can see that it's taking a toll on you everyday." He said. „You know, we've talked about it a while ago, but there's still the option to adopt. What do you think about it?"

„Honestly, Harry, right now it doesn't feel right to think about adoption. It may sound ungrateful, but just...not yet. I wish nothing more than to carry my baby, to give birth, to feel and see it all happen. I wanna go through the experience of being pregnant." I told him honestly as he wiped away a tear from my cheek that I didn't realize was running down my cheek.

„Hey, no. It doesn't sound ungrateful, sweetie. I understand that and I'd never wanna pressure or even force you into something. I'd love to keep trying if it's what feels right. You know, we're still young, we've got time." He said softly, brushing his hands through my hair. „I know that it's been a long time and that's it's been very frustrating, you've got every right to feel this way."

„You never seem frustrated about it. How can you not think about it all the time and be so calm?"

„Baby, I'm not, that's the thing. I'm thinking about it every single day, especially whenever I see my friends with their kids amd babies...it's hard. I just try not to show it around you. I don't wanna make you feel even worse about it." He explained to me which made me feel so sorry. It looked like he was dealing with this all alone.

„Oh..." I sighed. „Harry, I'm sorry. I don't want you to deal with this all alone." I cupped his cheek with my left hand.

„Hey no, I'm okay." He promised me with a smile, his voice so calm and assuring. „I promise, I'm okay." He leaned in to kiss my lips. „Listen sweetie, the day will come and we'll get our miracle baby. It's only a matter of time." He said, rubbing his thumb over my cheek.

I nodded, trusting him and his gut feeling.

„Just some more patience." He kissed me again.

„Yeah...patience." I said with a nod before I wrapped my arms around his body and he pulled me even closer to him, placing kisses all over my neck, face and head what made me smile a little, „Love you, Haz."

„Love you more, baby." Harry said sweetly, pressing one last kiss to the top of my head before I buried my face into the crook of his neck. „Will you be okay?" He asked me while he kept stroking my hair.

I nodded against him. „I am." I assured him, pressing a kiss to his shoulder. „Thank you, H."

„No need to, love." He whispered. „Sweet dreams, baby." He whispered and I finally closed my eyes to sleep that night.

That night, I dreamed of Harry and I having a perfect little family with a little girl by our side.