It's Okay To Not Be Okay

Chapter 5

They reached their hotel where they would be staying tonight before their flight back home tomorrow, most of them could have left as many of them live in Mumbai but they decided to spend time together, maybe to distract themselves? Or just be present there.

He was lying on his bed staring at the ceiling since he had reached his room, not even bothering to get changed.

The silence was disturbed by loud knocking of the doors, he quickly got up feeling the room spin but he shook his head and opened the door it took him quiet few seconds to process who was standing in front of him.

It was Rohit looking at him with frown, "Want something?" Jaddu asked before he could question him about anything. "Came to call you down for dinner" he said still frowning, "I am No-" he tried denying but Rohit's look changed from frown to enraged and he knew he is not letting him out of this, "No one is asking you, come with me" he said grimly and dragged him to dinning room ignoring all the protest he got on the way.
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He quietly sat beside him on the table where his plate was already served and he knew it was done by virat, if the duet food is to go by anything.

Everyone was silently having their dinner with a few small talks here while he kept playing with his food zoning out, staring at blank space "Want me to feed you?" Ms asked making the said boy jump in his seat and drop his spoon down. "N-no" he shuttered grabbing another spoon and finally ate a few bites, the said bites were smaller than what we feed kids.

He heard a scoff and didn't have to look up to know who it was, he carried on picking food from his plate nibbling, pretending to eat, he could feel a knot tightening in his throat and he was so close to running away and locking himself up in his room.

"Will you shut up?" Rohit asked his anger palpable, but still he had a hand on virat's shoulder trying to keep him a little calm.

"Why should I?" he grumbled, bhuvi who was sitting beside him was trying to keep his calm by doing some breathing exercises but listening to him talking back, he had enough "That's enough hardik!" he yelled making everyone jump on their seats shocked, well he will blame the stress fir his lash out. The match, the loss, trolls, interview, are already stressful enough and now they can clearly see jaddu's sudden change in behaviour not to mention his disorienting health and top of that he keeps picking up on him for no reason.

Suddenly the room was filled with tension thick air with bhuvi and virat glaring at hardik, who tried to aplomb but failed miserably.

Jaddu tried to take some deep breaths to keep himself in control, not wanting to re-create the scene of the bus here too. "I-I am d-one" he whispered in a low voice before getting up and almost running back to his room "Jad-" virat tried but he was already out of the dinning hall, now he regrets choosing the seats near the door.

"Happy?" he squawked looking at hardik and if the looks could kill hardik was sure he would have been buried 10ft under the ground by now.

"You're going overboard with it hardik, he is already suffering enough if you can't help at least don't add more into it.... if not has a friend at least for the sake of humanity, please?" MS tried to explain it has gently has he can trying to keep his anger and dissatisfaction away from his tone.

"He barely ate anything" yuvi said pointing to jad's abandoned plate across from him, he looked away from hardik to his plate and sighed. "I can bet he hasn't eaten anything since that day, does he think it will make it any better?" Virat said and everyone looked at him with the same expression saying 'You are saying this?'.

"Says who" Yuvi said under his breath but it was clear enough for everyone to hear making them chuckle. "Don't you think you guys should concentrate on him instead of making my fun" he said looking offended, "I will eat with him in his room" ms said getting up and grabbing his and jad's plate.
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He knocked on the door and waited for quite a few minutes before trying again. He looked at the door with frown and tried again this time panicking a little his thoughts running thousands mile per second. He was a second away to call virat when he heard a click and the door opened.

Jaddu peaked out his head from the door his hairs dripping wet he looked at him confused till his eyes fell on the plate in his hands.

"Planning to close the door on my face?" he asked jokingly when he kept looking at him in the same position for quite few minutes "I would never do that bhai" he replied, his voice sounding dull and weak he opened the door and let him enter "So I guess I am allowed to come inside" he joked again maybe trying to get some reply out of him, feeling slightly disappointed when received none.

MS got the food settled on the table before looking up at him he was still standing there, staring at him. "Come sit with me" he said patting the seat beside him "Don't worry I won't talk unless you decide to skip another meal" he continued when he saw him hesitate.

They had their dinner silently, this time he actually ate something ms smiled satisfied before having his own dinner.

"Jad-"

"I am sleepy" again he is avoiding the talk again, he was so frustrated, he wanted to yell at him make him talk at this point he can't see him so gloomy and dull but he knew better then that, he had to be patient with him or he will close himself more.

"Good night" he said getting up and taking the plates with him, he saw him shifting on his heels maybe wanting to talk but not ready so he let him be for now and went out.
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At night, virat was reading a book when he heard some noise from outside making him frown, it has to be someone from the team because they had booked the whole floor.

He came out and saw jaddu dragging his bags  towards the lift. "Where are you going?" He asked loud enough for him to hear but slow enough to not to wake up anyone.

He turned back slowly and found virat looking at him from head to toe, a silent way of demanding explanation. "A-irp-ort?" he said but the word came out more like a question. "Told anyone?" he asked this time his voice was firm and strict. "No" he murmured shifting uncomfortably on his feet.

Before he could say or ask anything he continued "Please I really want to go right now" he said almost pleadingly, he looked at him little taken aback, his change of behaviour was really worrying him now. "Please?" he pleaded in the same tone again. A part of him wanted to deny and make him stay here and talk but that would be too cruel.

"Let me help you" he said already taking a bag from his shoulder before he can deny it, so he let him be. The walk to the cab was almost silent except for the droning sound of wheels, he helped him to get his luggage settled in the trunk.

"Inform others" he said once he was inside the cab, "I will, don't worry" he replied giving him a reassuring smile which he tried to reciprocate but failed miserably.

"It was just a mistake" virat finally said patting his back, he didn't want to talk about that day, he was still not ready but he needed to because he couldn't see his crime partner like this. "S-sorry" he mumbled avoiding his eyes, "It's okay" that's all he can say, he wanted to say more but the words seemed to die down. 

Virat stood there staring at the car going towards the exist till it vanished from his eyesight, wishing he could have talked, explained, made him feel better, but the day had left some deep scars on him too and he wasn't ready to talk about it either.

A/N-

I don't hate hardik I swear :') please don't kill me T~T

Finally an update after a week lol
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