Missing The Sun

Chapter VI: Imperfect Sun

"Sun. Yesterday I saw Mint with his faculty friend at mall."

"Yeah? Who? Storm?"

"No. It's a girl."

Sun glanced a little at Deer. She was silent and thought for a moment.

"Ah. Must be Mai." Sun replied. "He told me he wanted to buy some books with his friend named Mai. She's a classmate."

"A-Aren't you jealous?" Vee softly asked.

"What for?"

All three of them exchanged quick glances at one another, their expressions filled with something unspoken, which left Sun feeling quite confused and bewildered by their unexpected reaction.

"What's wrong with all of you?"

"Nothing. Is it that perfect, your relationship with him?" Vee chuckled. "Don't get us wrong. I mean, you almost never complained or tell us about him though. You usually just say everything's good with him."

"Yeah it's good though if you're happy. But we just kinda wondering. Sometimes we don't feel like you're the Sun we know for long." Kongkwan added. "In a sense, you're so possessive with the things that's yours, but with Mint, you be really..."

"Like you don't even care where he is, or what he does." Deer interrupted.

"Chai." Kongkwan confirmed.

Is it that perfect, your relationship with him?

Sun stumbled a little. This simple sentence gave a different feeling as she tried to connect it with everything she was feeling, especially in the past few months. Her friends obviously knew her well, sometimes maybe even more than she did, and on some points they were right. Sun questioned herself, is everything really perfect?

"It's weird."

"Oy Sun, don't be mad—"

"No, Deer. It's fine." Sun smiled. "I need to confirm it with you all that it's indeed weird that I don't know how to answer it all. You all actually right though. I don't really feel anything, or the urge to—feel the jealousy. Is it normal?" Sun tried to open up herself. "Also, I found the way he thinks annoyed me lately."

"How so?"

Sun let out a deep sigh, feeling the weight of what lay ahead. It seems like it's going to be a long one, maybe longer than anticipated.

"First, he once mentioned about me fitting a role of 'Perfect Wife' to suit him and his family with everything I have in me. Then, he also mentioned that he likes me, and ranks me number 1 for all the quality in me."

"That—doesn't sound wrong, but also not right." Veer glanced awkwardly.

"Right. It's weird how he placed you like you're a component of a system—"

"EXACTLY!"

Sun's loud reply surprised all the three. Suddenly, the happy pill showed an excitement in her eye. This, for a reason, the real Sun they know for so long.

"I feel like, he's a perfect boyfriend who treats me perfectly because he thinks I match him that way. I couldn't explain much but, I feel like, there's nothing to explore about him. What I ask, he gives. What I want, he delivers. It's not a bad sign, but..."