Missing The Sun

Chapter XII: Broken Orbit

The hug was so tight, so even Ongsa couldn't bear to let go. She allowed Moon, the girl who surprised her with her sudden presence, to keep hugging her body until she slowly found her composure and finally pulled herself up to look at her upright.

"Ongsa, are you really mad at me?"
"I'm not mad, Moon."
"I know you are."
"No. I'm confused." Ongsa pulled her hand softly, asked her to sit down. "It's been more than a year since the last time you kicked me out from your life, and then suddenly you're here, in Bangkok. And you're transferring here?" Ongsa held her breath. "What's going on here?"

Moon didn't give her any single reply after a while.

"I'm sorry. Probably, that's the best thing I could say to you."
"And what was that for, Moon?"
"For everything."
"You can't just move somewhere—"
"You moved to Bangkok, so I need to."
"Why?"
"Because, I have to..." Moon looked down. "I just have to see you."
"I thought you hate me."
"Did I make you feel that way?"
"What did you expect, Moon?"
"I made a terrible mistake, I know. I'm sorry."

Moon's hands grabbed Ongsa's face, making the tall girl stunned. Ongsa missed the girl, and worried more about her than anything else. During those months, she thought a lot about the possibilities of what could happen and change Moon, a figure who always accompanied her steps with laughter and tears, and suddenly threw her from her life.

Moon. Someone who broke Ongsa's heart and crushed it to pieces.

"I miss you so much, Ongsa."

Ongsa's wide palm wiped away the tears on Moon's cheeks.

"I miss you too, Moon."

Ongsa didn't lie. She missed the girl so much she had to admit.

"Ongsa—"
"So, what's the reason, Moon? What did I do wrong?"
"Nothing." Moon inhaled. "It wasn't your fault either."
"So?"
"It was me. That I thought I didn't love you, that it was just a plain fantasy. But I was wrong." Moon explained. "I'm sorry, Ongsa. I think, even a thousand apology will never ever heal all the damage I gave you, all the pain I put you through." She took Ongsa's right hand gently, placed it in her cheek and smiled warmly.
"Moon—"
"I love you, Ongsa. I love you so much, that I can't live without you." The words were loud and clear. "And I'm here to redeem myself. Let me heal you, Ongsa."

Ongsa zipped her lips. Her mind was a mess.

"Moon."
"Ongsa, please."

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"Eat something, Sun."
"I don't feel like it."
"I know you're sad about what happened, but don't be like this."
"Kongkwan's right. Please eat, Sun. We're worry about you." Deer added.

Sun buried her face in the pillow, still sitting with her legs stretched straight on the bed. Her eyes felt warm and slightly swollen, from crying all night, or more like for the whole weekend. The situation was made worse by the fact that there was no reply to the message she sent to Ongsa, and the girl clearly did not try to contact her at all.

"How could she do this to me?"

Sun lifted her chin up, preventing herself from another cry.

"Hold on." Vee stared at her phone intently, it looked like she was reading something serious.
"What's up, Vee?"
"Do you remember Puwin?"
"Your cousin?"
"Yes. Puwin is actually studying at University of San Francisco, just like Ongsa, and guess what?" Vee rolled her eyes. "She knows Ongsa." She paused herself.
"So what?" Kongkwan rolled her eyes.
"And Moon. He knows Moon too."
"Huh?" Finally, Sun interested in something, but still not the food.