Missing The Sun

Chapter VIII: Restart

Sun ignored Mint's umpteenth try to contact her. After what happened that night, Sun's head was only filled with Ongsa, who somehow disappeared from her orbit. The next day, after that night, Ongsa met her to apologize for what happened, something Sun did not accept as a mistake. They both wanted that kiss, and Ongsa needed to accept it.

Sun decided to break up with Mint, who was surely couldn't accept it at all. Sun let Mint nag for a full hour, and whatever it was, it made her even more convinced that it was the right decision that she should have made a long time ago. Long before she anchored her heart to Ongsa.

The girl felt exhausted. She leaned her head on her desk after the afternoon class ended. She never wanted to cry like that before. That Friday, it was five days since Ongsa last replied to her text or received her call. She didn't see the girl's existence at all. She missed her presence.

A gentle hand on her head woke her from a momentary rest. Sun took a deep breath. It must be Mint. He just can't stop trying to get he back, will he? 

After fueling herself, Sun got up. She froze, was surprised to see the figure. The person who gently stroked her head earlier was Ongsa, someone who had been missing from her life for days. Tears fell to her cheeks. She felt the happiest to see the girl.

"Why are you crying?" Ongsa wiped her tears away softly. "I've been waiting for you outside, but then your classmate said you're still inside. Then, I came here." Ongsa moved closer and sat beside the girl.
"I just feeling exhausted lately."
"Is it about the lectures?"
"Not really."
"Oh. I forgot you're a smarty pants. S-TAR best student indeed."
"Stop teasing me like that."
"Don't you want to smile a bit? Even for me?" Ongsa smiled warmly. "No wonder the weather is so gloomy right now."

To her surprise, Ongsa pulled her body closer and wrapped with one hand. Sun hugged her tightly from the side, where Ongsa decided to caress her head and gave a little kiss at the tip of her head. Ongsa was brave, and for that, Sun's heart felt like it was blooming, bursting with joy. She buried her head in Ongsa's broad chest and hoped that the moment would never end.

"I'm sorry. I needed some time to think." Ongsa started the real conversation. "I didn't know it would hurt you this much. Reading your last message, I can only wish that I'd be able to erase the pain that I caused you, Sun. I'm really sorry."
"You're hurting me by staying away from me, Ongsa."
"I didn't know that. I'm sorry."
"Now stop saying sorry." Sun whimpered. "Just hug me. Just like this."

Ongsa tightened the hug, and when Sun pulled herself, her eyes were so ready to greet hers. Her hands were gently wiped the tears on Sun's cheeks. Sun had never felt something like that before. She felt she was in the right place at the right time, with the right one.

"I like you, Ongsa." Sun held her breath. "It was so tiring after all, secretly staring or smiling at you. Even long before the kiss, I was always wondering what's inside your mind? Like, am I even there, having a little space there for you to think about me? Maybe I'm crazy."

Ongsa didn't budge. She felt the need to remain in silence.

"You made a mess. Literally." Sun pouted. "I can't complain though. I can't be mad at you for disappearing, or even avoiding me. I don't have the right for it." She became a little better with her words then. She was a stronger one. "But for every time our eyes met, your every laugh, or silly chats. And even worse your kiss. Please tell me that your heart is beating the same way, Ongsa. Cause I'm so ready to risk it all for you."