Limbo ||Taekookau||

9. Turnaround

The flowers in the meadow were dancing to the wind as the sun was shining above them in the clear blue sky.

Jungkook felt the slight breeze in his face and smiled softly. It was a beautiful spring day.

He laid back feeling the grass give in as his back hit the ground slowly. He hadn't felt this content in a while. Maybe he had never felt like this in his whole life.

He looked around, taking in the colourful tapestry the flowers created, trying to snap a mental picture.

"Jungkook?"

At the sound of the raspy voice, the boy's lips broke into a smile covering the whole of his face, spreading from his eyes all the way to his heart, warming him whole.

He sat up and looked around. There he was. Taehyung, standing not that far away from him.

"Tae," he whispered to himself. "Tae!" he shouted, seeing the other wave at him in response, a big smile on his face.

Jungkook sprang up and started running towards the other man, wanting to bury himself in his warm embrace. He looked at Taehyung who was laughing and he giggled himself, running faster than before.

As he got closer, Taehyung's smile dropped and an expression of horror took its place.

Jungkook stopped dead in his tracks. "Tae?"

A big red stain started forming in Taehyung's shirt, right where his heart was. Jungkook watched with a horrified expression as the elder's face started getting more and more pale, eyes fixed on the younger but closing slowly and tears running down his face.

"Tae!" Jungkook screamed as he started running frantically towards the other man. His legs felt heavy, like something was holding him back, not letting him move forward. "Tae," he kept screaming, praying he could get to the elder in time but Taehyung kept getting away from him no matter how fast he run.

Taehyung collapsed on the ground, flowers all around him covering his lifeless body. Jungkook kept running, trying to make his way to Taehyung who wasn't visible any more. Tears were blurring Jungkook's vision and he was chocking on loud sobs. It felt like somebody was squeezing his heart with the intention to make it burst.

"Tae," he screamed again and opened his eyes to find himself in his room.

"Tae?" he whispered, looking around frantically but he was all alone. He made to move but a sharp pain in his lower back made him fall back on the bed.

As he breathed deeply trying to calm down, one by one, the events of last night started coming to him.

The alcohol, the alley, Taehyung, the sex..

No..

Jungkook groaned and hid his face in his palms, rocking his body back and forth.

How could he be so stupid?

He gave in last night, in the worst possible way.

No lube... He would feel that today and possibly for many days.

No condom... Fuck, how can he be so stupid?

He knew he would regret it but this was much, much worse. But everything happened so suddenly. He acted way out of character but the need to have Taehyung there with him was overwhelming, clouding his better judgement. And now he was alone, feeling way emptier than before.

And Taehyung..

Taehyung left him again..

His heart dropped and he felt a pit in his stomach. He pressed his palms tighter to his face. He felt tears prickling his eyes, threatening to spill. He choked a sob as he cried silently, ashamed of himself and angry at all his stupid decisions.