Mine (Part III) - Nolou/Uglydolls Fanfic

25 | Special Night

"I really do love it. Thank you."

I looked at the picture inside again and then back at Nolan.

It was quiet between the two of us and Nolan checked his phone for a second.

"I think I'm going to shower. I need one after all that dancing."

Nolan: "Oh. Yeah, me too. I should get going..."

I felt sad all of a sudden. I didn't want him to leave just yet.

"Maybe you could join me?"

Nolan: "Huh?"

His expression made me smile.

"You should join me. We can save water... and stuff."

He looked down and blushed.

Nolan: "It's just that.. I don't really feel like doing anything..."

He rubbed one of his arms nervously. 

"That's alright. Nothing has to happen. It can just be a simple shower."

He looked unsure.

"It's okay if you don't feel like it.. I'll even walk you home if you like."

He looked up at me and I pet his hair softly.

"I would never hurt you. You're just too precious to me."

I meant every word. But I'm sure he's heard those words before and been let down by someone else.
He leaned into me and wrapped his arms around my torso. I kissed his head.

Nolan: "I know.."

I smiled in relief and rubbed his back.

Nolan: "Maybe I could join.. to save water... and stuff."

Our hug ended and we made eye contact again. I decided to do something stupid so that maybe he would smile. I scrunched my nose and shook my head a bit.

He laughed at me and did the same thing back.
I smiled and messed up his hair.

"Right then. I'll go in first. You can join when you're ready. Or let me know if you change your mind."

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(Nolan's POV)

It had been a couple minutes since Lou went into the bathroom. I wanted to join him. But there was this lingering feeling that I was putting myself in danger. I shook my head and tried to get rid of it. Unfortunately, my trauma wasn't something I could get rid of whenever I wanted.

We didn't shower together much before because we could never agree on what the water temperature should be. So doing this was a gamble.

I removed my socks and pants and tried to leave them folded neatly on the floor of the bathroom. Lou couldn't see me yet because of the shower curtains.

I took my shirt off and set it down, too. I looked at my stomach in the mirror and wanted to change my mind.

"No, this is stupid. He's gonna think I'm gross."

I grabbed my shirt again. But before I could put it on, I remembered when we were intimate a couple nights ago. I remembered the way he kissed my scars and didn't shutter or cringe at all.
My heart was thumping from the indecisiveness.
I dropped my shirt again and I removed the last thing I had on. Now, I was completely naked. Vulnerable.

The mirror began to fog up a little and the warm air swirled into my nose. I closed my eyes and tried to keep a certain memory at bay.

(Flashback)