The Choice Bonjovi|| Engl.

Chapter IV•the past sometimes returns

How many times had he thought that life could play its cards in such a way as to upset everything, without even asking for actual permission to do so, he had already witnessed once how everything could change in a second...

He had always been convinced that when a door closes, it cannot be reopened, because it was like reopening a wound that had already healed and that had hurt, too bad as long as it could be remembered..

But that morning, he didn't want to reopen it, but in front of the door of his house, he saw the one he never wanted to see again, she had hurt him so much, that when he told her to leave he had been depressed for whole days without writing any songs, and it was there on an autumn day that Bed of roses was born..
He was born thinking about the pain he caused and that he would never want to feel again..

But Miriam was there, in front of her door wondering whether to ring that detestable bell or stand still like someone who was a target for a robbery..
But Miriam had committed a robbery, that is, taking Jon's heart and tearing it away from him without any mercy and playing with it as she pleased...

He would never have wanted You Give Love A Bad Name to appear real, yet it had happened, because of that woman who had sworn she loved him and then it seemed, or rather, it was recognized as an eternal rip-off..

- Miriam, what are you doing here, I told you not to come back - Jon told her, trying to keep as calm as possible, which wasn't easy, given the extent of the visit and the person who was there

- hello Jon, we haven't spoken for a while, don't you think - Miriam told him, she knew she wasn't welcome, it was clear to her..

But at that moment a question crossed poor Jon's mind: "why show up after his invitation to leave forever and never show up in front of that door again?" ..
He didn't know it, but everything seemed like a great emotional chaos, of which not even a song could help him alleviate the eternal disappointment that had been created in him by his now ex-girlfriend..

- As it happens, I don't intend to talk to you - Jon replied in a curt tone, he didn't want to see her, he didn't want to talk to her and he would have ended that conversation immediately.

- please Jon don't be a child - said Miriam and never was a more wrong move than that..

He didn't want to be offensive, it wasn't his style, let alone with a woman, but she wasn't just anyone, but she was the one who had thrown his heart somewhere without even saying I can..

- don't be a baby Miriam?! Are you serious about it..
It's not me who cheated, if it was you - said Jon starting to vomit words, he knew that sooner or later he would hurt her, but at that moment he didn't care.

- Jon didn't want to do it - Miriam told her ex-boyfriend

- ah no so why did you do it?! What a moment of weakness?!
Holy God Miriam, I am the one who is away for months and who would have all the temptations in the world and yet I have always been faithful to you, while you have not, and this is what pisses me off, I would have asked you to marry me on the day of my arrival and instead I found a chilling scenario, you with another - said a Jon now exhausted by the current situation

- Jon I..- that girl tried to say, but she didn't want to hear, no Jon was tired of hearing the usual excuses thrown in the air and without any logical sense

- Jon nothing or what you wanted to say was "I'm sorry Jon" or "you have to believe me that moment didn't mean anything" if your answers were this I would definitely have kicked you out of here already and I really hope you leave - said Jon with a now nervous crisis

He didn't know that Richie would come to him, but it was as if the guitarist had a sort of sixth sense for human messes or cases..

- Miriam why don't you leave, you will never talk if he doesn't want to - Richie told her seeing that scene as surreal as that one was

-Richie has to listen to me - Miriam told him, but as much as Richie wanted to stay out of it he certainly couldn't..

Jon was his friend and that girl had broken his heart more than it should have..

- no Miriam you tore out his heart and you will have to leave and I would ask you to do it now - said Richie sending the girl out

- you shouldn't interfere in a conversation that isn't your business, I think - Miriam said to Jon's guitarist and friend

- But this is my house, please leave, like a year ago that was the door - Jon said without any feelings..

Hiding wasn't his strong point, it never had been and at that moment he was having an enormous effort to resist and not show what he felt..

But that wasn't the time to get caught up in sentimentality and perhaps cry, perhaps after she would have left, even if she didn't seem to want to leave, in fact she was still standing there..

- may we know what you still want from me - Jon asked him under the gaze of Richie, who also wanted to understand what she was doing there

- speaking Jon, it's not a crime - said Miriam with the calm that seemed to have distinguished her

- in case I don't want to talk to you Miriam, I really don't want to do it, I just want to be left alone and do what I do best, which is to sing, so goodbye Miriam - said Jon taking the different path, going to his study in such a way that that girl understood that it was time for her to leave ...

And finally she left, Richie was relieved that she had gone, even if he still wasn't clear on why she was there and why she wanted to talk..

- Jonny can I - asked Richie, knocking on the study door

-Come in,-said a Jon, apparently distraught by the situation and crying

-Jon, you can cry now, she's gone,-said Richie

-Why does it still have to hurt so much- Jon asked his longtime friend

- Jonny listen, seriously, it hasn't even been a year, give yourself time to process what happened, I mean you broke up so recently - said Richie

-I know this though- Jon said

- it's a hard blow I know, but this can't stop you from depressing yourself further, make the most of it, for the group, write, compose, you can do whatever you want - said Richie

- let's hope - said Jon

- you'll see that it will be like this - said his friend