Was only Yours to Break (Intersex GxG)

Chapter 1

Jamie

Fuck, I am so fucked right now.

Here I am, third class of the day trying to pay listen to this old man at the front speak about some project that I can't focus on . At the moment all my attention is centred on one girl, Maddison. The most intelligent, interesting, and compassionate person I have ever met in this dump called school.

My unrequited love for her has been going on for 4 years, the first time we were having a conversation we talked about our dreams for the future, what jobs and colleges we wanted to be in. In that moment all I felt was this knot in my stomach that came with an uncontrollable smile.  I could have had the same talk with someone else, but with her I felt like I could spend hours sitting there just talking about anything and everything.

Today she looked breath-taking, not that she doesn't everyday, but she had her hair curled which always made her look extremely beautiful and a dark green long sleeved shirt along with slightly baggy grey jeans. Emerald green always suited her the best, her outfit and hair was perfect and-

"Jamie, are you paying attention? I asked you a question"

I was in-fact not paying attention,  a quite "um" barely escaped my mouth as I tried to avert my focus back on my teacher.

"I guess someone was daydreaming." He glared at me while a heard a couple of people snickering until he addressed the whole class.

I hope Maddison wasn't paying attention either, that was kind of embarrassing. I just slouched back into my chair trying to get her off my mind.

"Everyone, please listen since this is a very important project and will be the last you are required to do this school year. I will be assigning you a partner tomorrow and you may not switch. No whining." 

Great I have a high chance of being with someone I don't like, more than of these people I disliked. More reasons why I hate this class, social studies was my least favourite subject and the class was boring. I never really did good in socials so I really needed to focus during these last few weeks of school.

The bell rang shortly after so I packed my bag and put my AirPods in. I pressed on shuffle play on a playlist that had songs which reminded me of her. I listened to Stuck On You by Grentperez while walking out the door, but I was stopped by someone poking my shoulder. I turned around and my eyes locked with Maddison's hazel ones, when the light hit her eyes at the perfect angle it was the most mesmerizing site to see.

She motioned me to take my AirPods out as she gave the most gorgeous smile and laugh that my body would also mimic. I got nervous being around her and accidentally dropped one of my earbuds.

"Teacher is calling you, I guess you couldn't hear." she said while she walked away, as she did I wave of vanilla and a hint of strawberry came wafting to my nose.

Maddison and I don't have the best relationship as of right now, her best friend, Alisa and I do not like each other. She told people personal information I trusted her not to spread, ever since I've distanced myself from her which also led Maddison to interact with me less.

I looked in front of me seeing a disapproval face form on my teacher, Mr. M's, face. He was the most weirdest and boring teacher I had this year.

"Jamie, I need you to stay focused during these last few lessons. Your mark has been disappointing." 

Ouch, fuck you this is why you're my least favourite.

"If you get a good mark on this project your grade can improve and be where I expect you to be, this is worth 20%. I'll be pairing you up with someone I think can really help you on this assignment."

He sat down on his chair as I put back my AirPods and walked out finding my best friend, Joseph, waiting for me outside.

"You got in trouble didn't you, what'd stupid thing did you do this time." He asked as he playfully pushed me.

"Not pay attention thats all, also he basically told me i'm failing his class." We were walking to our next that which we both shared.

"Thinking about Maddison too much huh. I know you were daydreaming of kissing her mwah mwah!" Joseph pretended to kiss someone as I pushed him to get him to stop.

To be fair the bitch wasn't that far off from the thoughts I'd think about when looking at her.

The day finished quickly so Joseph and I took the bus home like most we do most days, when I go home I waved at my brother and his girlfriend then went to my room. I scrolled on TikTok for a bit and talked with my friends until I felt hungry. I ate whatever I could find in the fridge which was an extra sandwich nobody ate yesterday. My parents come home from work so I gave my mom a hug hello and as usual my dad went to his room without greeting anyone.

"You want anything we're going out" My brother, Sam, and his girlfriend, Alex, come up to me cause they would be going on a date and get a bite to eat outside.

"I just ate and I don't need anything so i'm good, thanks though" I waved goodbye as they walked past me.

"Ok text either of us if you change your mind, bye." Sam waved back as he closed the door and I went back to my room.

As I laid there on my bed I replayed the events that happened earlier, how Maddison would have a dimple form when she smiled and when she laughs she'd cover her mouth or her vanilla scent that would sneak a bit of strawberry at the end, it intoxicated me.

Shit this one-sided love for someone who is probably straight is not gonna go away and it feels like this is going to be a long night for me.