Was only Yours to Break (Intersex GxG)

Chapter 4

Jamie

Great here I am on top of my black bedsheets in grey sweatpants and baggy light blue t-shirt crying with my best friend with me. We were listening to The Script songs while he tried to comfort me with hugs and a calm rub with his thumb on my back. Absolutely nothing, not even a friendship will grow between Maddison and I. Fuck that little liar, she keeps meddling in my life without a care in the world.

"Shhh its ok. Try to get some sleep, it's already 12:30 and you need to rest. You've been crying for almost an hour. I understand that you're hurting right now, but you still need to care for your mental and physical health." He was right of course, but I just wanted to stay in my room and cry until the pain is gone. How the fuck am I supposed to fix this, everything has gone to shit.

*Flashback*

"Well umm, are you and I okay?"

"I don't know really understand." She started to look everywhere and anything that wasn't me.

I stepped forward so that she would revert her eyes back to me.

"You and I. Whatever type of relationship we have, are we uh good? Cause you always seem to not wanna be around me or act really cold towards me." I was really desperate on trying to understand things right now.

She sighed and looked pulled her eyes up to meet with mine, her gaze softened as if she were sorry for something. 

"I just don't want to be around someone who hurt my best friend. I'm sorry you're feeling this way, but I can't be associated with you. What you did was not right." She gave me an apologetic smile before packing her things.

Me hurting Alisa what the fuck was she talking about, it's the other way around. What kind of shit did her friend say about me.

"I'm sorry what..? W-what exactly did I do to her?" My eyebrows furrowed as I tried to get the words out of my mouth, I was so in shock and angry that I didn't know what to do in that moment.

"I know that you made fun of Alisa and verbally bullied her while you were friends, you never considered her feelings or her boundaries." She looked back at me with anger after she put her computer back on her desk. She folded her arms as she waited for my response.

"Is that what she told you? I was nothing but kind to her while we were friends, everything she told you was a lie! She switched the roles, she's the one who hurt me." I really tried to convince her, there wasn't much I could say, it was just my word against Alisa's. I couldn't let her view me in this way. I'd rather have everyone hate me and Maddison love me than everyone love me while she hates me.

She shook her head in disbelief and she leaned against her desk. My fidgeting got worse and I tried to calm myself as to not scare her, I didn't want to raise my voice higher since she never liked that. 

"I've been friends with Alisa longer and she's not the type to do this." Her voice went quieter as she looked deep into my eyes like she was trying to see if I was lying. 

"Please Maddison you have to believe me, i'd never do that to her. She was my friend at the time and I cared for her a lot." My actions were blinded by my emotions that I moved closer in front of her and took her her hands in mine as I tried my hardest to convince her.

"How am I supposed to believe you? I barely know you, we're not even friends. Why should I trust you?" She looked at me with pity in her sparkling brown eyes. To my disbelief she didn't take her hands away from mine.

"Cause I-" Cause I fucking love you so much. I swallowed my words and pride, I looked down at my hands that were cupping both of hers. I put my eyes back to her face which was now filled with confusion. Her pink lips were slightly agape and I could smell her perfume a bit more than before. 

"Please believe me, trust me." My thumb started to rub her hand, it was soft and cold. 

"I-I don't, I can't, i'm sorry, umm please leave.." she pulled her hands away from mine as she moved to another part of her room. My heart ached as I felt tears about to fall out, I packed all my stuff quickly and walked as fast as I could out the door.

I went into my car swiftly and drove fast, but reasonable of course. As I entered my house, my brother and his girlfriend got up as they saw a waterfall of tears coming down my face. They tried to ask me what was going on but I bumped past them and bolted to my room.

"Hey, is everything alright? What happened? You can tell us anything you know. Were here to help you." Sam knocked on my door as I dropped and curled myself onto my bed.

"Please just leave me alone..!" Sam, Alex, and I are close, but I needed space and didn't want to be bombarded with questions as of right now.

Gay Boy <3

Please come over Joseph..

need some comforting rn

I promise to tell u everything later

Dw im omw

ill be there in 5

*End of flashback*

Crying usual makes me tired so soon enough I did fall asleep in my best friends arms, hoping that when I wake up everything was a dream and nothing happened.

Joseph

I am going to fuck up that little raggedy bitch. I made sure to stay by Jamie's side until she fell asleep. I pulled the covers up on her then quietly left her room. As I came out I saw Sam waiting on the couch with a worried face.

"Is she okay? What happened?" He stood up as we both walked to the front door.

"She's sleeping right now, but she is still pretty torn up by everything. Alisa was spilling some lies to Maddison and now Jamie's a bit heartbroken." I put my shoes on and took my car keys out.

"I think she just needs space right now, i'll come by tomorrow to try and cheer her up." Sam nodded and I waved goodbye to him as I left to go home.