Was only Yours to Break (Intersex GxG)

Chapter 3

Joseph

Seeing Alisa makes my blood boil. Jamie was only kind and loving towards her, they used to be very close until that little rat decided to break my best friends trust and heart. No hate to my friend of course, she could have never seen what was coming when she trusted someone she thought was her friend.

"Maybe we should walk to the bus stop before this one.." It hurts knowing I can't do much to take away the pain Alisa caused Jamie, but all I can do is be there when she needs me.

"Yeah we need to get our steps in anyways, we don't want to be fatties now do we?" I gave her a warm smile to make her happy which successfully happened as she laughed at my joke.

Having a massive gay crush on the girl thats best friend with your ex friend never ends well. I hope that Maddison and Jamie may have something, but it doesn't seem like there will be a good ending. I just hope that if something bad happens I'll be able to shield her this time and make it hurt less.

*Next day*

Jamie

I was so excited and scared to meet with Maddison that I woke up earlier than I expected, 10:43. I wanted to dress causal, but also put some effort into my outfit. After a nice shower and a couple of wardrobe changes I settled on a white crop top with a black semi baggy zip up hoodie on top and blue dark washed baggy jeans. I curled my hair as well and while I heard a ping coming from my phone I accidentally burnt my hand on the curling iron.

Madi ❤️

Hey, it's Maddison

js wondering if u were still coming later?

Yeah dw ill be there in abt 20 mins

Ok no worries no rush

Heres my address ****

See u later Jamie (:

See u in a bit!

Damn it, I burnt my hand getting excited from a text. I can't be invested so much in a girl that is probably straight and wouldn't go for me even if she was gay. She is the most fascinating person I got to know, her hobbies and interests are so captivating. She loves race car driving, Formula 1 kind of stuff. She could talk about cars and music non stop, if she was talking about everything I hated in the world I wouldn't mind listening. Compared to me she's like the moon and i'm a star, multiple stars scatter around the sky and sure some may not look the same, but the moon is the only one of it's kind.

I finished curling my hair and put my favourite perfume on, a hint of lavender. I borrowed my moms car since it would be faster than taking the bus and my mom was sleeping from working the nightshift. It took about 15 minutes to drive there and park, when I got out I felt a wave of intense nervousness and I found myself once again fidgeting with my hands. Hopefully I don't do something stupid.

I walked up to the black door and knocked on it. Maddison opened the door and I gave her a awkward wave along with a smile.

"Hey Jamie, come in. My room is upstairs." She welcomed me into her house and I followed her up the stairs and into the door that was on the left.

Her room was really clean like it was sparkling white and was decorated with many little green plants. It was just as I expected since she's always been organized and tidy. She had an acoustic guitar in the corner which I was not surprised about since I know how musically talent she was, she played many different instruments such as piano and an many different types of guitars. Her room was mostly white even her bedsheets but it had some colour from some posters, pictures, and her plants of course.

She was never the talkative type of person, she was more observant than verbal. When we sat on her carpet covered floor, to my surprise she started the conversation to get things running.

"So we have a set of questions to answer, um we can split the work to make things go quicker." She just nodded while she was looking at her computer that was on her lap, again I felt this pain in my chest. It felt like she just wanted to get things done and with less interactions with me. But to her credit it was a logical thought.

It had been a couple of minutes since we started, things felt a bit awkward and tense like we were both on edge. I thought that we would be ok considering the way she was texting and knowing that without her best friend around she was more willing to interact with me, but maybe it was all in my head and i'm just being delusional.

"So um i'm almost finished with my questions, are you doing alright with yours?" I turned to look at her and started a conversation so that maybe we could talk more before finishing.

"I'm almost done with my last question so we'll most likely finish our project on time."

Great exactly what I wanted to hear..

"Umm yea I think so too." I didn't want to seem bummed out in front of her, but I really was. I thought this was the chance I could use to get closer to her, but this whole evening was filled with disappointment and pain. I don't understand why she looks like she hates me all the time and why she's friends with that girl. She may not know to the tee what happened, but I thought that she may have knew a bit of the situation.

After another hour we finished our project, rough copy and final copy. I really couldn't leave without knowing why she seems more colder now than before. I mustered up all the courage I had to ask her point blank.

"Hey Maddison I have a question to ask you." I couldn't stop my hands from cracking my knuckles even if it was already cracked. I did this motion from going to each knuckle back and forth repeatedly.

"Yeah sure, whats on your mind?" You of course. This was the first time she actually looked with her mesmerizing dark brown eyes into my own. 

I took a deep breath and went straight into it. "Well umm, are you and I okay?"