Irish Promises

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Pulling up to our gate I sit there and contemplate what the fuck has just happened.

The way she looked at me playing over and over again in my head like a fucking horror movie. Just staring down at me like I mean absolutely fucking nothing to her.

I've never seen her look so cold and heartless. Because that's exactly what she fucking is. Heartless.

How the fuck am I going to tell the twins.

This is going to destroy them. They fucking love her. I fucking love her.

Loved her.

No I still fucking love her despite all this.

Despite the fact she's just completely betrayed us, torn my heart out and will have undoubtedly left my brothers in pieces.

I still fucking love her.

Reluctantly I pull up our drive and up in front of the house, taking a deep breath to prepare myself for the conversation I'm about to have to have.

Hugh's still M.I.A

I can't fucking get hold of him and this is exactly the kind of time where I need my other brother to take over because the thought of tearing my little brothers hearts out isn't one I particularly look forward to. 

Finally deciding to get out of my car and head inside I ignore the ache that flows through my body from the absolute beating I took, a constant reminder of what has just happened.

The moment I step inside and the twins clock me they're on full alert.

"What the fuck happened!" Fin roars jumping up from his seat, his body tense as he takes in the sight of me.

His fists are clenched at his sides ready to take on any challenge without question but I don't think he's ready for what I'm about to tell him.

"Who the fuck did that?" Cian asks his movements mirroring Finn's, their likeness showing instantly as they stand side by side ready to fight.

 They glance to each other and then to me clearly unsure but both nod in perfect sync and seat themselves back down. Their bodies still tense and ready for any impending danger.

Easing myself down onto the chair opposite them I take a deep breath ignoring the ache in my ribs and then I go on to fill them in on today's latest development. 

There's a mix of expressions that flash across their faces as I reel off what's happened. Confusion, anger, betrayal and the one I really didn't want to see. Utter heartbreak.

"No she wouldn't fucking do that" Finn says shaking his head. "She wouldn't do that to us" he then says and the pain in his voice is unbearable.

"She had us all fooled" I say glumly.

That being the hard bitter truth.

Cian doesn't say a word he just sits there staring at the same spot in the wall in complete silence, retreating into himself like he always does when shit gets hard.

I knew this would hit Finn hard but looking at Cian now I feel it might hit him harder. She was the main reason he'd come out of his hole, she brought him out of it and we'd had our brother back but now.

God I don't know what'll happen now. 

Like the flick of a switch Finn goes from shattered disbelief to utter rage. 

He's up on his feet and with a roar he starts tearing the place to pieces. Smashing furniture, punching his fist through the wall. He just completely loses it and I know if I don't get him contained there's no knowing the lengths he's going to go to in order to release his frustration.

Despite the state I'm in I try to restrain me. Get my arms around him and he thrashes about trying to get free. 

"Get the fuck off me!" he shouts trying his hardest to get out of my hold and fuck if it doesn't hurt to him this broken.

My happy go lucky little brother nowhere to be seen. Replaced by this one filled with so much rage he can't contain.

All because of her.

Because of what she's done to us. 

"What the fuck is going on" Hugh's voice bellows, the suddenness of it and his authority getting through to Finn instantly. 

He stills in my hold panting from the exertion.

When we both turn to where Hugh's standing his mouth agape as he takes in the destruction around him it's then I notice that Cian's disappeared.

I was so occupied with trying to restrain Finn I hadn't even seen him slip out. 

Hugh takes one look at me his eyes going wide and then he says "Someone fucking explain what the hell is going on"

"Stas is gone, she left us" Finn mumbles, his voice strained. "She left us for him" he then says a shudder wracking through his body.

I see the shock flash across Hugh's face, the colour completely draining from it as Finn's words sink in. 

I expect him to explode like Finn, to absolutely lose it but instead his eyes land on me as he says "What the fuck have you done"