Irish Promises

Chapter Fifty-Four

Silence. Complete and utter silence falls in the room as what Cian just said sinks in with his brothers.

It's so deathly silent I automatically feel like I have to fill it.

"I don't know why I said it, I wasn't thinking properly, I just- it just came out" I say rambling and when none of them say anything my stomach turns and I can't stop my mouth from running more.

I climb off the bed and face them all as I dip myself an even bigger grave.

"I mean we hardly even know each other and I just meant like one day I would like to, you know after Natalia and everything I just really want the chance to be a mum properly" I blurt out without even taking a breath and because I'm an idiot I don't stop.

My hands flap about as I become more and more animated and I'm pretty sure my whole face has turned a horrible shade of red from how humiliated I am right now.

"But if that's not what you want then I understand, well it would suck because I love you all and would love to have little you's running around calling me mum" I say and it's then I realise I really need to shut up.

"Oh god I really need to shut up" I groan burying my head in my hands.

When I hear Hugh's laughter I realise I preferred the silence so much more, especially more so when they all start laughing.

Im way too mortified to look at any of them so I keep my head buried in my hands even when the laughter dies down and I feel hands clasp my shoulders.

I'm reluctantly turned and I assume I'm facing Hugh so when his hands come up to try and pull mine away I turn to absolute stone.

"Anastasia look at me" he says softly but I can hear the amusement in his voice and it makes it so much worse.

"No" I grumble shaking my head. "Go away"

"Kind of can't do that seeing as you'll be stuck here without us" he scoffs "and well we all know you have absolutely no sense of direction feather god knows where you'll end up"

There's a little chuckle from his brothers but it quickly dies out and even though I can't see his face I reckon Hugh is glaring at his brothers.

"This isn't funny" I grumble.

Managing to easily overpower me Hugh pries my hands away from my face but the jokes on him because I close my eyes as tight as I can refusing to look at him.

He sighs and I expect him to be pissed with my stubbornness but he sounds incredibly soft and caring when he speaks.

"You're right it's not funny, in fact nothing about this is. Especially not if you're serious about what you've just said"

"I don't want to talk about it anymore" I say and thankfully we're interrupted.

"Unfortunately the X-rays-" the doctor says coming into the room but cuts short and that's when I finally open my eyes to see Hugh in front of me.

When I turn all three brothers are standing behind me and I'm sure to the doctor this looks very concerning. Like I'm being caged in.

He regards us all for a moment but when his eyes land on me they narrow and then dart down to where Hugh's hands are gripping my wrists.

"The X-rays are what?" Finn snaps and I feel the warmth of his body as he steps up behind me.

For a moment I wonder if the doctor thinks I'm in some kind of danger here but I can't really be sure.