Irish Promises

Bonus Chapter Two - Part Six ❤️

Stasia

I need to pee.

If I don't get up and go soon I'm pretty sure I'm going to explode right here on the couch but I have a feeling that the moment I move they're all going to be on me again. Wanting me to take that test and I can't do it.

I can't get my hopes up again to end up feeling completely shattered.

I know it'll be negative and I know I'll have to look at the disappointment on their faces as well. I can't go through that again right now, not when things have been going so well.

They wanted me to stop and take a break, and even though it's been so difficult to do I've done it. I've enjoyed the time we've been able to spend together even though it's constantly been in the back of my mind.

Even as I pretend to watch Home Alone, I can feel all their eyes on me. Watching me and monitoring every movement I make.

They're not wrong I have gained weight but I've told myself time and time again it's because I'm eating properly just like they wanted me to and that it's not because of anything else. If I let myself think other wise I know my mind will just run wild and it will end in disaster again.

As soon as the credits start I see Hugh shift a little out of the corner of my eye.

They're waiting for me to say or do something and I know the moment I make eye contact with any of them they're going to say about doing the test.

If I could stay here and not move I would but my bladder wins the battle so I have no other choice but to get up.

As soon as I do they all get up too.

I attempt to dart out but Finn is a lot quicker than me and reaches out to grab me.

"I'm going to pee myself!" I cry out as he pulls me back.

"Come on beautiful you can't ignore this" he says to me softly.

"I can and I will" I grumble even though I know he's right.

He doesn't let me go though and with all of them staring at me I eventually deflate, losing all the fight I have in me.

"Don't you get it?" I cry. "If I take a test and it's negative-" I then begin to say.

"Then we'll all go through it together like we always do but we're not going to know unless you take one" Hugh says cutting me off.

Finn's arms tighten around me and I know it's to second Hugh's point and say that we're all in this together. That they're with me like they've always been.

As soon as I've flushed the toilet the doors opening with them all barreling in, clearly filled with excitement that they're trying to keep hidden but fail miserably at it.

The sight of it makes my chest feel tight.

I just know their excitement is going to be dampened the moment they see the result on that test. I've lost count of how many times we've been here. How many times I'd convinced myself and them that it was different and that the test was going to be positive just for all that hope to disintegrate within seconds.

I'd never quite realised how a simple stick of plastic could completely shatter your world into shreds but now I understand it all too well.

For that exact reason I place the test face down on the counter, wash my hands and then without saying a word I perch myself onto edge of the bathtub and drop my head into my hands.

That exactly where I stay whilst we wait for the result. The tension rising in the room by the second until the point I feel like I'm going to suffocate.

I don't look at them even when I hear them shift on their feet. I stay exactly where I am and prepare myself for what comes next.

"Stas it's time to look" Cian says softly from across the room.

"I can't do it" I mutter.

"Do you want us to look?" Hugh asks.

I nod my head but I still refuse to look up, instead I cover my hands over my ears and clench my eyes shut as hard as I can.

I can just about hear the movement in the room but there's no sounds of celebration or elation and I know exactly what the result is without having to be told.

I try to hold myself together but instead tears start to stream down my cheeks as the full force of the disappointment hits me.

Even though I knew this would be the result and I tried not to get my hopes up part of me still hoped it would be different this time.

Suddenly a set of hands cover mine and they're pried away from my ears but I keep my eyes clamped shut.

None of them say a word and the bathroom is completely quiet until Hugh whispers into my ear.

"Feather it's positive" he says so softly that for a moment I'm pretty sure I've imagined it.

"What?" I gasp, my eyes snapping open to look at him where he's now crouched down in front of me.

I'm slightly aware of his brothers hovering behind him but my focus goes straight to his face and his sincere expression.

He wouldn't lie to me I'm sure he wouldn't but then why would he say that. Maybe he's got it wrong, he must have it wrong.

He opens his mouth to say something but I cut in before he even gets chance.

"No it can't be" I blurt out and choke on a sob.

A soft warm smile spreads across his face and he gently nods as he says "it is"

He reaches back and Blake passes him the test, he then puts it in my hands but I'm way too scared to look down. Instead I keep my eyes locked on him.

"I can't look" I admit. "I can't do it"

His glassy eyes hold mine, showing so much emotion in them.

"Do you trust me?" He asks.

Of course the answer is yes. I trust them all, more than words could even possibly begin to explain.

My eyes blur from the tears but I swallow hard and nod.

"Then look at the test Anastasia" he says.

It takes everything in me to pry my eyes away from him and look down. As soon as my eyes land on the test and I see those two lines everything seems to stand still.

The feeling in my chest doesn't feel so crushing anymore it feels like it's going to burst for a completely different reason.

My body shudders as if everything hits me at once, I bring one of my hands to my stomach and rest it there as my eyes meet Hugh's again.

His aren't just glossy anymore, now there's evident tears there and when I look to his brothers they're all the same.

I don't think there's even the right words that would be able to describe what this moment feels like all I do know is that it means everything to me.