A Journey Through Time

Chapter 80 - What Motivates Me Now?

I used to love doing arts and crafts because I loved expressing myself creatively in the moment.

Now if I do anything creative, it has to enhance me in some way. Am I using my creativity to solve a problem? Am I developing a skill that can be used to help others or provide a service? Am I using my creativity to relieve stress and improve my overall mental health?

I used to loved learning and exploring new things because everything I learned was new and interesting.

Now if I do any exploration and learning, is it helping me develop as a person? Is it helping me advance in my career? Is it helping me stay informed about the world? Is it helping me make better decisions that will ultimately benefit me in the long run?

I used to love to connect with people that were nice and caring to me because I loved feeling like I belonged, especially when I most often felt like I didn't.

Now if I do connect with others, are the relationships providing me with the emotional support I continuously need? Is it providing me with opportunities to network and advance in my career? Is it providing me with a strong sense of community?

I used to love mastery and achievement, and becoming really good at specific things like academics, puzzles, crocheting, and musical instruments. I tried to be the best so that others can be proud of me.

Now if I do try to master a skills, does it help enhance my career prospects? Does it help me achieve a level of competence that I'm currently lacking?

I used to crochet and engage in arts, specifically to comfort myself. So much was happening when I was younger, and crocheting would be the one thing that helped me get my mind off of things.

Now if I do engage in comforting hobbies and activities, are these activities gonna make me feel aligned with myself? Do these activities give me the feeling of being free and in the zone?

There has to be a purpose in everything that I do.