eighty days. | ss

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"i love you, seokmin."

jisoo saw how seokmin's expression changed the moment he finally said those words.. those words that he kept practicing yesterday with lee chan and wonil, the words he kept hidden from the mafia ever since, and the words that he second thought if he's gonna say it to the younger or just let the eighty days flew without telling him about his feelings.

actually, it was never jisoo's intention to finally confess his feelings towards to the younger. this is not the day he could imagine saying those words back even though he only got a few weeks left. he was never meant... he never planned. but this situation, this moments and this feelings was too much for him to handle that he couldn't help it anymore but to say what he feels, to finally confess what everyone is anticipating him to say.

seokmin blinked thrice. "w-what? jisoo." then jisoo smiled so sweetly at him, though inside of him, he felt a pang inside his chest seeing how happiness was obvious in the youngers eyes. "for real? y-you love me too?"

jisoo nods his head automatically, water started to fill his both eyes. "yes, ever since then. even before you saved me when i tried to escape for the second time." he cupped seokmin's cheeks and he caress it very gently, still smiling sweetly at the younger while seokmin was staring at him in surprise. "i have love you ever since, the first time i met you back in jeju almost three years ago."

have i told you this already? that the reason why jisoo doesn't have a lover or why he's pushing everyone away whenever they tried to prove and show themselves to him? because what jeonghan announced before when they are still in maldives was true, that jisoo is still hoping for a chance to meet the man that he saved back in jeju before. jisoo is still hoping that one day, fate will allow him to meet seokmin again. and because he hates to admit it, but he fell in love with seokmin already in just a first sight.

and he wants no one, but to meet seokmin again. and seemed like jisoo was really a heaven's favorite because the man he was hoping for to meet again, is the man who's looking for him around the world and who's obsessed with him.

the older swallowed hard. "i admit that it made me hate you knowing what you are and what you have." he remembers it all too well, how he hate and sworn to himself that he would never fall in love with seokmin, but hell because ever since then he's already in love. "but my feelings for you was way more stronger that i dont care if you're a criminal, a mafia boss, anything. all i care is you.. the seokmin, my seokmin."

"im sorry i couldn't say this to you more early, i just couldn't put my feelings into words." jisoo added as tears went to cascade through his cheeks already.

oh, jisoo just said a lie just right now. where? when he told to seokmin that the reason why he couldn't say his feelings more early is because couldn't put it into words. its a lie. it was never been like that because ever since, he already can put into words what he's been feeling towards to the younger. and the real reason is, he's having difficulty on how to say it to seokmin.. and why he's having a difficulty? remember that he realized something when he stared at the paintings he made before?

yes, that's the reason. and honestly, he thought of it thoroughly last night that he couldn't sleep more early. he made himself and his mind clear that he would just kept everything hidden until the eighty days would end. because the thing he realized is his freedon. the freedom, the life outside the mansion, with his mother, with his friends and with his career that he worked hard reaching for. and remember the deal? that after eighty days and if nothing has changed, seokmin will set him free.. he will let him go.