Because of You

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Vern's POV

"Hello Darling, long time no see". I hear that disgusting voice and I cringe. I can't believe he had the nerve to even be here.

I look up to see his stupid smirk. How could he come to his ex's funeral which he ruined, and had the nerve to not even dress up.

"Number one why are you even here, and you had the nerve to not even dress up" I whisper yell at him as a push past him, getting up from the couch. He was wearing khaki shorts and a beach button up like he wasn't mourning his ex who he dated for 4 years.

"Hey babe, don't walk away from me" he says grabbing my arm. His grip was tight, and it was starting to hurt.

"Get off me" I say as I try to pull away from him. His hand just tightens and I know my arm will bruise.

"I heard that it was your fault, you yelled at her and made her so upset she killed herself hmmm?". My heart dropped and tears started to tear up.

"Yea that's what I thought" he says as he comes closer to me breathing on my ear. I squirm and he pulls me closer making me flinch.

"Now talk to me love" he says as he pulls me through to the front outside.

"Get off of me, please just leave me alone" I yell as he pulls me and I yank my arm back.

"You're a terrible person, why are you even here you're the one who ruined her! You definitely didn't deserve her" I yell and feel immediate pain across my face. I collapse from how hard the slap was, and my hand goes to my face wincing at the already black and blue mark.

"Don't ever talk to me like that aga-" he starts to say when I hear a yell. We both look up and I see Jesse walking over looking so angry. I'd never seen him that angry.

Before Jake can even say anything Jesse throws a punch connecting his fist with Jakes jaw. Once Jake is down Jesse keeps on punching him and I start to see red.

"Jesse! JESSE please stop you're gonna kill him" I yell and people start to come outside and watch the scene going on. I try to get Jesse off him but he won't budge. Zach and George try to get Jesse off of him, while Matty pulls me away from everything.

I can't help but cry into Mattys shoulder, while he rubs my back and coos nonsense trying to make me feel better.

"It wasn't supposed to be this way, she wouldn't want this" I say and Matty just gives me a pity look. I probably looked a mess. I go to move my arm when I feel a sharp pain and look to see a dark black and blue bruise. Jakes hand print was bruised around my arm, and I winced.

"Did he do that" I hear and I see Jesse walk straight over to me. Matty walks out and leaves me and Jesse alone. "I can't believe he did this to you, I'm going to kill him, who hits a girl?"

"Im fine Jesse" I say as I walk into the bathroom. I gasp when I see the side of my face in the mirror. He really left a mark.

"See you aren't ok" he says grabbing my chin to look at my face more carefully causing me to flinch.

"Jesse I'm fine, can we please just forget it and leave it alone" I beg. I really didn't wanna talk about it.

"NO, I won't forget it he hit you! What were you even doing anyway" he yells.

"JESSE enough, I don't wanna talk about this. I'm having a terrible day, if you couldn't tell and I just want forget about it" I say back.

"You don't get to decide what happens now" he says and I get really mad.

"Jesse I'm not a child" I yell back. I don't understand why he's being like this. If I was hurt I would tell him.

"Well you've been acting like one ever since Lena died. I can't keep up with you" he says and his words cut me deep. I get it now. Loyalty only goes so far, once you're not useful to them you're out.

"Well I'm sorry that my my band mate dying is such an inconvenience for you, but you won't have to worry much longer". Before he could say anything else I was out the door, down the stairs, and outside to the driveway. I hoped in my car and sped off.  I didn't know where I was going, but I needed out. I needed a cig.

I walked into a corner store, and bought a pack of cigarettes. I could tell the cashier knew from the band but didn't wanna say anything. I just signed a napkin and gave it to her, and her eyes lit up and got glassy. At least I've made someone's day.

At that point I remembered a place Lena had gone when we were both upset. I drove to the lake and sat down on the dock. I lit up another cig and let the toxins invade my lungs, releasing me from my built up anxiety.

The past months events flashed through my head as I closed my eyes, and there was too much pain stuff in a short period of time. All of my thoughts were jumbled into my mind. Time had passed but my feelings just got worse. Everything built up and I felt overwhelmed once again. I took a deep breath and looked around me.

And I jumped.

I jumped into that lake and I slowly went down, looking up I saw the sun become distant and lighter as it got darker in the water around me.

And I didn't want to swim up. I was so tired. My lungs pressed for air but I ignored them, still keeping myself underwater.

Then I thought of everyone I would hurt if I died.  Bailey and Caroline couldn't take another death. At the last minute I swam up coughing up water as I climbed back on to the deck.

I needed to get my life in order for Lena. I'm going to get better, and help myself out this dark path. I can't sit in this anymore.
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Ok Vern's about to get so much better and happier. She's gonna fight bc she's a bad bitch who deserves happiness.

Jesse needs to get his shit together.

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