Because of You

Prey

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Vern's POV

I woke up to the sun shining in and an arm over my waist. I smiled turning around and seeing Jesse sound asleep next to me. I missed sleeping by him.

Sometimes I think I loved him too much and that scared me so much. Am I supposed to depend on someone so much for my happiness. When I'm with him I almost forget about the storm inside me. Almost.

I slide out the bed quietly, not wanting to wake him. Grabbing a long sleeve shirt and spandex I go downstairs to make breakfast.

As I stir batter for some pancakes I feel two hands on my waist and I can't help but smile. Small kisses are placed from my shoulders to my neck. I turn around and see Jesse in all his glory, how can someone look this good after they just woke up?

"Good morning".

Jesse gives me a small peck and then turns on the radio. He grabs my hand and spins me around, and somehow we end up slow dancing in the kitchen.

In the couple of terrible months that I've had I finally feel.. ok. Like I'm not drowning, like I don't have to scream for someone to hear me. Like there's a weight off my chest. But happiness doesn't last very long...

Jesse grabs my wrist a little rough, pulling me to him and I unconsciously wince. Concern floods his eyes and grabs my hands before I can pull them away.
He rolls my sleeves up and sees what I didn't want him to see.

"No.......Veronica" he says. He never uses my full name. Ever. I really don't want to face him, I never wanted him to see these. He thinks I'm such a strong individual and I didn't want him to see my moments of weakness.

I run out of his arms and up the steps, tears pouring out my eyes. After getting to the bathroom I shut and lock the door, sliding down it.

All I hear is banging and screaming to open the door. I'm so stupid, he wasn't supposed to see them. I didn't want him to see them. I'm ashamed enough I don't need anymore pity looks. Trust me I have enough to last me a lifetime.

Slowly the banging stops and the screaming stops and everything just stops and I'm left in silence.
I close my eyes.

I can feel myself getting bad again and I don't want to. I can't do that again. Because I won't survive if I do.

When I feel overwhelmed I just close my eyes and think about a memory. My favorite memory.

Flashback

"Jesse you're crazy it's pouring outside". I stare out the window to see the beach and the sun shower outside, drenching the sand and roads.

"I don't care, it'll be fun. Please baby for me" he begs throwing me some shorts since I was currently in a cropped shirt and underwear.

"Alright alright". Before I can think I'm being dragged outside to the beach. We get outside and we're immediately soaked.

We sprint to the beach hand in hand, until he slips and takes me with him, us falling into the wet sand.

I roll off him and look at the sky, it was peculiar. While the rain was heavy, it was warm. The clouds were white not grey and the sun still shined, making it beautiful weather.

"It's so pretty out". I roll over straddling Jesse, him holding onto my waist. I just admire him, he was a beautiful sight.

"I love you, I really do. You make me the happiest I've ever been. I love the way you care for others, and I love your little giggle and I love your kisses and hugs, and I love your sweater paws, and I love all you flaws because they're perfect to me. I can't wait to marry you and have a family with you.
You're all I want. All I need". He sealed his confession with a kiss.

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I know it's cliche but this memory keeps me alive. It was just us, stripped of all barriers, hearts filled with love for each other. I don't deserve him. He deserves someone who can be happy most of the time, and isn't as fragile glass.

I stay with my eyes closed, living in this fantasy. I loved this memory and I loved him. I wish I could stay asleep and just live in this dreamland. Because waking up is just a nightmare.

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This story literally  gets sadder every chapter and it makes me so emo ://///

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