Close The Door

Ya'll

We were back in Korea. The boys were prepping for the next album already, and it was depressing. 

They all seemed so tired, and so was I. I was drained from trying to search for my dad, and on high alert for my brother. I was waiting around for a call from him, but there was none. 

I fully pulled back from everyone. Since we weren't required at the JYP building anymore, I stayed home and went to work. All day, nothing to do. Hyunjin was over my place almost every day if he wasn't recording or modeling. And as for everyone else, they moved on with their careers. 

Although I have been getting emails about being a background dancer for ENYPHEN, ATEEZ, and TXT... I just couldn't find myself opening up to anyone else other than Stray Kids. 

Funny enough, they became my haven over the tour. But, during the whole tour, I had been ignoring Minho. Not to hurt him, but to prevent him from hurting himself. I'm too hard to love right now, I can't be. I might have a target on my back, and I don't want to put him in immediate danger, or pain. So damn right I stayed away from him. 

It was when I visited the studio to offer up some snacks. What Hyunjin didn't tell me is that Lee Know would be there. Chan gave me his bear hug in excitement. "It's been a while yeah? What you have been up to." I smiled, "Just trying to survive." 

The 3Racha boys were sitting on the couches while Hyunjin sat next to the stereo. He was reviewing his tracks before getting in as our first guest. 

Fucking Lee Know. 

I smacked the living shit out of Hyunjin's arm. I gave him a look and he winced. "Sorry," he mouthed to me. I mouthed back, "Fuck your stupid sorries!" 

The team was recording for a studio album behind the scenes, and one of the producers there was a woman. I think she was dating S. Coups from SEVENTEEN or something. I don't know. 

(Casually mentioning my other fan fiction rn)

I watched as she directed Lee Know to sing in alto as the staff members started setting up. One of the staff members poked me and asked me to help her in the booth. I wanted to say no so badly, but that would look bad. 

I walked in knowing Lee Know was staring me down. The mic came through and I heard the woman producer ask if we were okay. I turned to her giving her a nod. 

Jesus, is it that obvious? 

The other staff member left me in the booth alone to hook up the camera equipment. "I haven't seen you in a while. You doing alright?" I let out a small huff as I refused to look at his face. 

The less I knew, the less it hurt. 

"Yeah, it's just been hard without my mom around." His voice sounded strained as he begged, "Please, if you need anything call me. I know we took a break so you could have a friend, but I do miss you and I-" I cut him off not wanting to feel the hurt anymore. 

"I know Minho." I finally turned around to look at him to give him the final blow, "We didn't take a break... I just don't wanna be with you anymore okay?" 

The camera turned on and I walked out. I left with the other staff members and Hyunjin gave me a saddened look. 

God, why'd it have to be this hard to let go? I just wanna march back in there and tell him I didn't mean it.