Have You Ever

Chapter 1 - Aiah

Flashback Year 2020

Yes, it's Sunday and I will be attending the morning service before leaving Cebu. I'll be going back to Manila for work, it's kinda frustrating leaving my family, friends and church mates behind. Kung kelan napapalapit na loob ko sa mga kasamahan ko sa simbahan.

I listened to our Pastor's lecture, it was about preserving yourself for your husband in the future. Well I'm in my early twenties now so ito talaga yung laging pinapa alala samin ng pastor namin.

It's time for my solo na, pinakanta ako ni Pastor sa service namin, bago daw bumalik ng Manila kailangan may maiwanang magandang memory sa church. I chose to sing Blessings by Laura Story since isa sa paborito kong praise and worship song.

Natapos narin ang morning service and it's time to say goodbye at lumapit sakin si Jeremy, "Hey, I heard you're going back to Manila na, talagang mamimiss kita Aiah, you captured our hearts here today".

Jeremy is one of the reasons why I became a new person, he is a devoted missionary, he loves his work so much and I admire him for that. He has a special place in my heart! Alam ko namang hindi basta basta ang ginagawa niya kaya sobrang hanga ako sa taong to.

"Yes Jeremy, I'll be going back to Manila tomorrow. Back to work sa magulong siyudad ng Maynila. I'll miss you too, mamimiss ko mga encouraging words mo, our Bible study dates, yung outreach activities natin".

"Uhhmm, Aiah huwag mo kalimutang mag message sakin araw-araw ha ipag patuloy parin natin yung partner Bible study natin, I'll be with you always kahit magkalayo na tayo.

I can't deny the feelings that I have for this guy, he accepted me for who I am and made me believe that there's still hope for someone like me. I wish deep in my heart that he's my better half, the right person that God chose for me. I include him sa mga prayers ko at ganun din siya sakin.

"Lord bigyan mo naman ako ng signs please"

It's hard walking away right now not expressing how I really feel for him at lalong hindi ko alam kung kailan ulit kami magkikita. I'm not the type na mag fifirst move, nakakahiya noh babae po yata ako.

I left with a heavy heart, ini isip ko yung bonding namin sa church at mga kasamahan ko. Then, I told myself "Kaya mo to Aiah mahal ka ni Lord".