I WISH I HATED YOU

Chapter 12

It was just a day after the mess Leon, and I made in detention class. I was walking into the hall, carrying a backpack filled with tons of books. Today I have a physics exam that I barely prepared for. Whole night Leon's face was in my mind. I close them, I see him and I. I open them, I still see him. It feels like he glued up to me and my mind doesn't let him go. Every time I look at him, I get weak and susceptible. Surely, staying away would be the best option for both of us. But I get attached to the people I shouldn't, and he is not an exception.

The rain from yesterday was still present. I had no umbrella, so I just let it all soak me. I put books into the locker and took the ones out I needed for today's classes.

"Doris, please talk to me." I got interrupted by an almost unfamiliar voice. I raised my head and saw the worst possible person I wanted to see right now. Kyle. His dirty eyes were pointed at me, and I tried my best not to show any emotions.

I turned in the opposite direction and went on my way to the classroom. But he kept following me. "Please, Doris."

I stopped my footsteps and turned against him, "What the fuck do you want? You can't fix something that's already been broken. You clearly didn't want me in your life, and now what makes you want me again?"

He remained silent and then spoke, "What makes you think sweet Leon wants you. Let me tell you something," He swallowed and opened his mouth again, "This was all his idea. All of this."

My heart sank, and I spoke with a pain in the throat, "What do you mean?"

"Go ask him." He said before leaving me alone. I ran fast towards the class and sat down. I saw no one around me. The world became blurry as thoughts occupied me. What was he talking about? What did he mean it was Leon's idea? I hoped he was baffling, but deep down I knew he meant something by saying that. I started to shake, and I lost control over my body. I couldn't feel my skin anymore, and I forgot how to breathe. The teacher walked in and dropped books on the desk with exams. My heavy breathing got more noticeable, and I felt unheard. "Ms., May I go to the restroom?" I spoke. "Is this some new way of trying to avoid an exam?"

I responded with a blank stare. "Is she having a seizure or something?" Someone joked. I stormed out of the classroom. "Doris!" I heard the teacher's shout, but I couldn't care less to come back. I paced around the empty hall trying to find the restroom, but I struggled just to walk. "Doris. Doris."  I kept hearing familiar shouts in the distance. My body was disconnected from my soul and thoughts. "Doris." Shouting was nearer, and nearer. I stumbled down, and before I fell, soft hands reached my body. One moment I was held, but another I was carried. I opened my eyes wide open, and I saw Leon's face. "Not you." I mumbled. I was too restless to care, and just wanted to feel okay. Suddenly we were in the bathroom, and he rested my body down on the ground. My body kept shaking, but now it started crying. He grabbed my hands and patted my hair with his fingers. "I am here. You are safe." He said with his soft stupid voice. I stared numbly at him and started crying even more. I reached out for a hug without words said. We were wrapped in a hug, and a sense of reality was hitting back.

I let out a few heavy final breaths and felt final chills on my skin. I stepped away from him. Ask him about the thing Kyle said to you. Voices in my head kept telling me, but I just chuckled at him. He looked so soft and comforting. His face wasn't pale as it's usually, and his lips were burning red. He chuckled back, and said, "Are you feeling anything better?"

I nodded, "I am missing the physics exam."

He grabbed bottle of the water from his backpack, "That doesn't matter right now. Here you go."

I smiled and took a water bottle from his hand. "Thank you." I whispered.

"I know you didn't study for the exam, anyway."