I WISH I HATED YOU

Chapter 13

Entering school, I tried to look for Leon, but he disappeared in the mass. For fucking's sake. I thought.

"Doris, please talk to me." Sydney's voice showed up behind me. What does she want now?

"If you will give me another speech about you and your new boyfriend, I am not interested."

I kept walking but her steps were still behind me.

"It was the bet." Sydney said and my body froze. She approached and stood in front of me. She kept talking as my heart broke in tiny parts, "You were just a bet of Kyle, and it was Leon's idea. The first week of school when they met Kyle, they found out you had a thing with him. So, Leon had an idea to make you and Kyle rebound and him to ghost you again. Kyle accepted and that's what he had been trying to do for the past 2 weeks. Anything he told or did to you was fake."

"How do I trust you?" I comforted myself as I denied the most likely the truth.

"Ask your dear boyfriend Leon. Would you rather trust your friend of 6 years or someone who hated you for years?"

"But–."

"There is no but. Nice t-shirt though."

Tears began to fall as I watched her leave. The trust I finally gained in someone just disappeared in this very moment. My heart had a hard time accepting it, and even worse my body that stood frozen in the middle of hall. Heart took control over me, and I just let it break me. I burst into tears and sat down at the nearest bench. Why do we get attached to people that don't deserve it? Do we really accept the love we think we deserve?

I harshly wiped tears from my cheeks and forced anger out of me. It was lunch break and I burst into the lunchroom looking for no one but him. I wish I could take this disgusting t-shirt off me, and just burn it. I'd rather be naked than have these that hurt me on my body. I started pacing around the room, and there he was. He was sitting in the corner with his stupid friends probably mocking me and making fun of me. That is their only entertainment. His idiotic devilish smile was not hard to notice. I walked fast and stood pathetically in front of his friends and him.

"Leon!" I said and my voice already broke.

He turned around together with the chair he was sitting on. His face looked so innocent. How is he so good at faking it? I have never seen guilt and remorse on that face.

"So, I was just a bet?" I shouted wanting to sound angry, but I only appeared desperate.

"Doris." He whispered trying to sound emphatic. It was almost believable.

Kyle was laughing in the background together with David. I had no support and I felt so small.

"So, idea was that I fall for Kyle again and he ghosts me the same way. Then you and your friends laugh about it. It was your idea, was it?"

"Fuck, Doris. It was just stupid idea I got before everything happened between us."

Whispers between his friends started to go around. "You know, Leon. I trusted you. I know it sounds ironic and stupid. I really thought you were different than your friends."

I began to fix my hair, and my eyes were on the ground.

"Doris." He got up and grabbed my hand.

"Don't touch me!" I stepped away, and stormed, "Why you didn't tell me before?"

"I have no idea. I had no idea it would turn out like it did."

His eyes stared confidently at me. My eyes filled up with tears making his face blurry. Why do I always get so emotional in front of him? Why can't I hold in? His stupid blue eyes weren't off me for whole minute, and his friends watched us invested.

I blinked, and tears began to fall on my face. "Turn out like what?"

He moved his head away clearing his face with his cold hands. I waited for a response that wasn't coming, and I just stepped away before I decided to go.

"He doesn't care about you, dawg." David shouted at me.

I grabbed my backpack and went towards the main doors.

"I had no idea you would fall in love with me instead." He shouted back. The room became quiet, and we were the center of attention.

"Fuck you, Leon." I stormed out of the room, and Leon didn't hold back from running after me. With every step I made, he was after me. "Doris." He shouted.

"Doris." He shouted again.

"Why aren't you fucking mad at Kyle who was lying to you whole time?" He shouted.

I turned towards him and pushed him on his chest. "Why can't you just say fucking sorry. Are you that proud of yourself." My mind was screaming, but words were difficult even to utter.

I turned around heading to back to the class. His stupid shirt was still on me. I forced myself to take steps forward. They were getting faster and faster, but he stopped following me. He stood where I left him. I was leaving him, but deeply wanted him to beg and prove to me I was wrong.

I once told myself I would never let you in – that my heart was too strong and powerful. But one day you showed up and unlocked my heart, stole the keys and now I must find the way to get them back.

EDITOR'S NOTE:

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