I WISH I HATED YOU

Chapter 10

MONDAY

Doris's POV

"Are you sick of me?

Would you like to be?

I'm tryin' to tell you somethin'

Somethin' that I already said"

Lover's Rock - TV Girl

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The silence in the halls on Monday morning was always present, but today it seemed to scream through my ears. The clock on the wall was ticking loud, whispers of the girls in the corner could be heard by everyone, and I watched my friend Sydney with her new boyfriend David make out against the wall. How disappointing. I thought. When you feel alone, the silence screams a thousand words. Sydney was the first girl I've met in this school; we spent every day together and told each other our wildest secrets. Watching her leaving me for the boy who never cared for her in the slightest. The sweet and dangerous don't go together.

I broke the silence as my footsteps approached them. I sighed. "Sydney, really?"

She looked back at me as she was disgusted. "Oh, hi. Doris."

David sighed heavily. "What the fuck are you doing here?"

"Did you forget Sydney is my friend."

"Since when?"

"Way before you even acknowledged her existence. Can you move away?" I continued as I grabbed Sydney's hand, "We have to talk privately."

I pushed her aside and whispered urgently, "What's the matter with you? David, really?"

"Says someone who is hooking up with Leon."

"What are you even talking about?"

"Listen! You don't know David. He loves me, and I love him. Alright?"

"I don't even recognize you anymore."

"You know what. I never liked you, Doris." She shouted and broke the silence of the school hall.

She continued, "You never wanted to go to any of the parties, we barely met any other people. You are just in your own bubble. I see you now being lonely. Because you refused to meet anyone else besides me. I got sick of you. I'd be embarrassed to be associated with you. Imagine being friends with someone who hates everyone around them. Also, Leon doesn't give a fuck about you. You really think someone like him would lower standards for you? Fuck off, Doris."

"Ouch." Someone said in the background. Whispers started walking around from one ear to another.

"You know what, keep fucking that scumbag. Don't be surprised when you see him with another girl next week. When he hurts you, you will come back to me crying and telling me I was right. I did go to parties with you. I went to Kyle's party where," I stopped sarcastically, "Hmm, I wonder who left me alone with your beloved David and Kyle who put drug into my drink?!"

I raised my voice as I said confidently, "Why are you talking like I have something with Leon? He was actually–"

I froze as I saw his face walking towards us. His dark spirit shifted the aura as he was coming, and musk scent dominated the space. He looked me in the eyes, and I quickly looked away. "Oh, Doris. Stop acting dumb. The whole school knows that you are following him like a puppy. Typical desperate Doris. You never told me, but I knew you always liked him. Every time he would come and annoy you, you'd get so giddy later. So dumb and naïve."

I was stunned to say a word. I looked towards Leon, and before I could sense what he was thinking, I ran away from them. "That's what I thought."

I never felt so alone, and all I felt was the world crashing around me. I rushed to the classroom and sat down. Oh fuck. English class. Detention class is today. Other students walked in including Leon. He sat behind me, and I tried to ignore it. I felt his breath approaching my ear, and he whispered, "I had no idea you liked me."