BLESS ME, BLESS YOU

CHAPTER 33

“Why are you crying?” Sailub took out his handkerchief and wiped Pon's tears. “It’s even the same for people with money. I haven’t cried yet.”

Pon tightly grasped the ring box in his hand. He took over the handkerchief, wiped his face, and took a deep breath and asked, “I want to agree now, can’t I?”

“I hope you will think about it again. I’m not in a hurry to ask for your answer.” Sailub said in a deep voice, “And… I hope you can learn more about me.”

Pon eagerly replied, “I already know…”

“No.” Sailub helplessly interrupted, “Do I have to make it that clear? Pon, I had been holding myself back in front of you, or you could say I was pretending. When there are outsiders, I need to play the image of a good husband, so that others think that our marriage life is very harmonious. When in front of you… I’m afraid that because of your young age, being with me every day, you’ll learn the wrong thing. So I have to be wary.”

Sailub snickered to himself, “If I knew I would come to like you, I wouldn’t…”

Sailub continued, “Forget it, it doesn’t make sense to talk about it now, but I’m sure, if we are really together, I won’t be so restrained and gentle towards you… you may not like it.”

Sailub was afraid of mentioning Pon’s sad past and did not say things clearly.

He was worried that Pon had a particularly good impression of him only because of the loss of his father when he was young.

Pon stared at Sailub his voice hoarse as he refuted, “No, I’ll still like you. Regardless of whether you believe it or not.”

Sailub tried his best to restrain the desire to directly press Pon against the wall and truthfully said, “Baby, there are some things you may not have thought about. Do you think that once we are together, I’ll eat and chat with you every day, accompany you to do homework and after that return to our separate rooms? Then the next day, wait for you downstairs to have breakfast together, and send you to school afterwards?”

Pon blinked his eyes, stunned by his response.

“That’s raising a son, not having a relationship.” Sailub said softly, “Of course, we can still maintain this way before you grow up some more, but when we really confirm our relationship… we need to become a real couple.”

“And I wouldn’t be like one of your elders, being that harmless.”

Pon blushed a bit, finally understanding what the older man had meant.

Sailub whispered, “Let’s give each other some time to slowly get used to it, okay?”

He tried his best to suppress his desires.

God only knew how lucky he was when he heard Pon say “I want to agree now”, but he was young, too young. Sailub couldn’t trust him to be responsible for his own actions.

Sailub was Pon’s guardian, and when Pon couldn’t be responsible for himself, Sailub would defend and protect him from this level of harm.

He wanted to give Sailub plenty of time to consider his choices.

“My heart…” Sailub looked at the ring in Pon’s hand and continued, “It’s already in your hands. No matter when you reply to me, my answer will not change, so don’t worry.”

Sailub’s calm eyes carried subtle gentleness that was not easily detectable. “In this relationship, I am destined to be passive.”
“So let me pursue you for a while, okay?”

Sailub continued, “Besides, I also have selfish intentions… I want to treat you better and win more favors for myself. I want you to be with me and make you never want to leave my side.”