treat you better // pedri

seventeen

"Am I being dramatic about the situation?" I question as I turn my head to look at Pedri as we're laying outside, looking at the stars.

"If it hurts your feelings it doesn't matter if you're being dramatic about it, everyone is different and will view things differently." He says as I furrow my eyebrows before I roll over so I'm now facing him.

"Why do you always know what to say? It's starting to freak me out." I mumble as he laughs, putting his arms behind his head.

"I was on the receiving end of someone pulling away from a friendship and rather than getting upset about it I moved on and got whatever closure I was needing. It's worse to make it a big deal and make the person feel bad after they're already clearly going through something." He says as I sit up fully, pulling my knees up to my chest as I wrap my arms around them.

"Is that why you left?" I ask quietly.

"I mean I had an opportunity to come here and I've always loved this club, so when I got the offer it wasn't something I could pass up and then live with that." He replies as I click my tongue.

"That makes sense." I say as he nods.

"So after you opened up it'd be wrong to judge you for something that's out of your control, which is the divorce. And the thing I'd be able to judge is everything that happened after but I wouldn't do that, especially not after you were comfortable enough to open up to me." He says as I take a deep breath.

"I don't know if I said thank you yet, like actually said it." I say as he leans up on his elbows.

"You don't have to say it."

"I need to though. I need you to know that it means a lot to me, and being able to open up with no judgement feels really refreshing." I say as he turns his head to look at me.

"I wouldn't judge you for something out of your control." He says as he sits up fully.

"But you would've judged me for sleeping with all my friends if I did that?" I joke as he smiles.

"I mean that would've been in your control so you could say I would've." He responds as I shake my head.

"How supportive of you." I mumble as he turns so he's facing me now, sitting about a foot away from me.

"If you were dating one of them it would've been fine for that, but I saw you close with a few of them that dating seemed out of the question." He says as I shake my head.

"I've never had a boyfriend anyways." I mumble before I immediately cover my mouth, "I don't know why I just admitted to that."

He begins laughing as he shakes his head, "that's okay." He says as I cover my face with my hands.

"It's late and I really feel like I'm sharing everything about myself." I scoff as he shrugs.

"Why haven't you?" He asks as I furrow my eyebrows, "had a boyfriend I mean, like why not?" He adds.

I tap my leg a few times before I clear my throat, "I feel like I have an aversion to letting people in, and that kind of leads to me not ever really talking to guys past maybe a day." I say as he frowns, "so I mean it's a miracle the guys even put up with me."

"It's not a bad thing you know. You're allowed to keep your circle small without feeling like you're missing out on anything." He says as he looks at my hand quick as it's now rubbing my leg, "and if anything relationships are overrated."

"You ever been in one?" I ask as he shakes his head.

"I don't care to be in one right now, I feel like it'd be a distraction from my career and that's my main focus right now." He says simply as I nod.

"I respect that, you know what you want to focus on and that's admirable." I say.

"But I mean if I met the right girl then maybe she could shift my focus a bit and I wouldn't be totally opposed to that." He implies as I feel a smile creep onto my face.

Is he talking about me right now or am I crazy?

"Really?" I ask as he nods.

"It's not like I'm going to swear off relationships all together because I want to focus on football, but I'm not seeking it out. If it finds me then it finds me." He says as I bite the inside of my cheek.

"That's kind of how I am I think, like when the time is right I think I'd be open to one, but I'm not like constantly trying to talk to new guys in hopes of finding a relationship." I explain as he nods.

"We're the same then." He says as I nod slightly.

"Seems we are." I say quietly as I tap my phone and we look at the time before he stands up.

"I should probably get going, it's almost midnight." He says as he reaches his hands out for me and I grab them as he pulls me up.

"You've been here for almost 9 hours." I say as he shrugs and we go inside.

"That doesn't bother me though." He says as I open the front door and I walk down the steps with him down to his car.

"Thank you for coming over, it means a lot to me." I whisper as I play with a charm on my bracelet.

"Thanks for inviting me, that means a lot to me." He says as I smile.

"Of course." I say as he looks at me playing with my bracelet and he frowns slightly as I step closer to him as I wrap my arms around him in a hug, "thank you." I mumble as he quickly kisses my cheek as I pull away from the hug.

"Bye Solis."

"Drive safe."