The Way She Looks At Me •Freen&Becky•

One Hell Of A Training Program

FREEN SAROCHA'S POV

This time, Becky and I were truly over. She's my first love and even though she deceived me, she only did it for love and I shouldn't blame her, Because I also deceived my family for said love.

Everything sort of went back to the way it was. My family was back to it's original state but I still couldn't fill up the hole in my chest left by Becky. I'd be stupid to still think of her but I do, I really do and on a daily basis.

Everyone told me that breaking up with Becky was for the best. They all told me to be strong and not shed tears over The Princess. But in my closet, tears streams freely down my face knowing that I've lost something I might never be able to replace.

I wasted no time going back to school. I needed to distract myself from reality. I'm not saying that I'm angry with my family for not understanding Becky and I but  I'm also not saying that I'm not angry with them.

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About two weeks after the big breakup, Becky came to Mahidol.

After warning her not to return, she came back? I was angry but actually I was just really happy seeing her again.

Weirdly, she rolled out the red carpet on her return as though parading herself as The Royal Princess that she is.

It was so elaborate that everyone on campus was on it. She seemed so happy and unbothered about what transpired between us and our families. It's now an old story to her.

I thought she returned to continue learning but she only came to announce her departure from Mahidol University.

"I wanted to know how it feels like to be amongst my peers from the lower class. How good is a leader who doesn't know and understand her people?" she said, when asked why she came to Mahidol University.

She was smiling and parading herself with no care in the world like she is a different person from the Becky that just lost love. Did she even love me or was I really just another number added to her collection?

She visited the lecture halls and dormitory. She spoke to some administrative heads and some students and even spoke to me.

She came up to me and hugged me. Talking about how I made Mahidol fun for her. While the press constantly took pictures of her.

When she stared at me, for a split second, I could see her pain. She was pretending to be happy to keep up appearances but she was drowning inside.

I hate seeing Becky suffer like this. I wish I could hug her and tell her that everything's going to be alright.

But that would be a lie. I can't go back to being hers and she can't be mine either. Even though that is what we both crave.

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After finally leaving Mahidol University, The Princess publicly celebrated her engagement to her fiance, Duke Theodore and moved to Prince Kong-Song University.

She is gone. She left after showing me that love could feel so good. There's no one like Becky, she spoke directly to my heart.  If I know what love is, it's because of Becky. But It's such a shame that we're worlds apart.

I cry myself to sleep at night. "Time heals all pain" they say.  But it's been two months and I just can't get her off my mind.