THE JOURNALIST IN 5 YEARS
Madilim pa sa labas pero gising na'ko.
Hindi dahil may gumising sa'kin-pero dahil sa lamig ng dextrose na parang dahan dahang gumagapang sa ugat ko. Ibang iba na ang pakiramdam ng katawan ko. Heavier. Numb in almost all parts of my body, but it all hurts.
Parang nahihiwalay ako sa katawan ko. Parang hindi na ito yung katawan ko.
" Mom..." mahina kong tawag.
Agad siyang lumapit. I was not surprised. Hindi na rin siguro siya natutulog kakabantay sa'kin. Nakaupo lang siya sa gilid ng kama ko, hawak hawak pa niya yung mug niya na kanina pa siguro malamig.
It was so obvious how tired she was, from staying up all night watching over me; but she still smiled at me.
" Gising ka na, anak," she said. " May mga procedure lang ulit ngayon. konting tiis nalang, ha?"
I didn't bother asking. Hindi ko na tinanong kung ano na namang ituturok o gagawin sa'kin. Hindi na ako nag reklamo.
I'm so tired of asking, and somehow I got used to it.
A nurse and a doctor entered my room. Bitbit ang tray na may mga tubes, gamot, at gloves. This scene is familiar, so familiar. Ang pinagkaiba lang ngayon kesa noon ay once a month ko to mararanasan, ngayon araw-araw. Kahit ilang beses ko na itong pinagdaanan, hindi pa rin siya madali, masakit.
" Ma'am, we need to insert a central line today," sabi ng nurse. " We'll be inserting the central line today. She needs direct access for the medication and nutrition. Hindi na po siya makakakain ng maayos. Sereia needs a more direct access point-for medications, blood draws, and TPN "
TPN. Total parenteral nutrition. I knew what it meant. I had read about it during one of my better days, when I still thought I had time to prepare for this. Now, I couldn't even lift my hand to hold my mother's hand.
My mom just nodded. Pero kita ko-kumapit ang kamay niya sa bedsheet, at medyo nanginig.
Tinanggal nila 'yung hospital gown sa may leeg ko. They sterilized the area on my chest. The cold sting of antisepetic burned my skin. I winced. A nurse held my shoulder down.
" Relax lang po, Miss Sereia. It will be a little bit uncomfortable. This will feel tight, but I need you to stay still"
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Heartbeat Of Summer
RomanceTo complete the last perfect summer. Sereia and family went on vacation to her lola. Where she mets the perfect tour guide to show how beautiful places are while they last. Kaito shares her the places he loves and adore, which also leads to learn ho...
