Blooming red | s.jy

34. A safe of love and friendship

Aera's pov

We walk hand in hand , our fingers intertwined , our souls dancing due to the confession. His warm touch against me. Im blushing like a mad women. Theres a comfortable silence between us , the soft hum of the breeze and the faint chatter heard of the civilians around us.

"Does your ptsd still act up?" My head snaps towards his direction. His emotions collected yet his voice softer than the petals of a flower. But this question was a secret closely guarded by me. I knew that a certain time will come when i will have to spit out the truth instead of swallowing it up. The ptsd that none of us knew at that time , was what they saw once in a blue moon almost 4 years ago. Sunghoon knew, everybody but him.

How am i supposed to accept the truth , where i can feel my hands tremble by the mere mention of it. I inhale a sharp breath and reply with a curt nod muttering a small yes.... "You don't have to worry rose , yeji told me everything this morning" a tug on his and he stops in his place. I stand frozen on the ground , not daring to look him in the eyes. I told yeji about my ptsd the next day after i met jake again , i have no idea of why she told him but somehow i don't feel any remorse towards her for doing so

"Did she....." i shut my eyes before questioning "did she tell you how bad it was?" A minute if silence and he replies "yes she did" thats when i feel his finger lifting my chin , and i slowly open my eyelids , letting myself drown in those dark brown orbs once again. He tilts his head faintly to the side , a subtle smile . He leans down to look  exactly in my eyes and says "so you were hiding too huh?" I only gulp the lump in my throat not having the audacity to answer but then he flicks me on my forehead.

"Ow! Jake!"

"What? I mean we're even now , aren't we?" He smirks , raising his eyebrows more like in a flirting manner , making me scoff and punch hi shoulder earning a hearty laugh. "You're crazy" he shrugs and swings his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer. "Maybe .... Crazy for you" a wink and there i cringe and laugh at the same time. "Eww jake thats so cheeky , since when did you flirting like that"

"Since i fell for you baby" and there goes a kiss on my cheek. I suppress my smile and look the other side to hide my face , which is now a shade of red velvet within a second. "Just remember you have nothing to hide from me" my eyebrows crease when he says that and i turn to look at him , him already staring down at me and i realized we had stopped walking.

"What i mean is that , lets not hide anything from each other now on, the more we hid the more we make this relation of ours worse , we broke each others trust once , lets not do it anymore" his voice dripped with honey , his words genuine and i fall myself falling in love for the nth time.

This was something i had always dreamt of . A dream which came to reality today , i can't help but smile and close my eyes when he presses his lips on my forehead kissing it softly , the kiss lingering there for a few seconds. "Because we are meant to be lovers , i can give you all my love , whatever you ask and im ready to sacrifice even if it's my life for you , you ask for my time? I'll give you. You want to go somewhere want something? I'll give to you , just please , please dont go away from me anymore , i can't let you go this time"

Honestly i don't have words left to say , only my cheeks damp due to the warm tears and push him acting as if im mad "Stop!"

"Hey hey why are you crying? Did i say something wrong?" And he is now the caring man  he is . "Stop! Your being too sweet making me emotional and blush like a mad woman" as soon as he understands the situation he bursts out laughing making me giggle too.

He grabs my arm softly engulfing me in his warm embrace , burying his head in the crook of my neck. "Well that's because i love you so much"