Bad Reputation

37.

Max left a couple of hours later. He was actually a fun guy, his relationship with Lando was just amazing.

He cared a lot for him, and Lando cared for him.

He probably thought Lando wasn't serious about me when he saw me that night. He would never call Lando a red flag in front of a girl he actually liked.

So, maybe Lando didn't really like me back then.

It didn't really matter to be honest, he was a red flag back then, maybe he still is, but we were just friends anyways.

I wasn't ready for another relationship, not after everything Jordan did.

"How did you become a bartender?" Lando asked, disturbing my thoughts about him.

We were laying on the grass together, looking up at the sky, that turned dark. There were little stars here and there, but not that many.

It was a cloudy night, but not that cold.

"Good question" I chuckled. How did I become a bartender? It was never my dream job or anything, not at all. "I moved to Monaco with Sav a couple of years ago"

Lando turned his head to me, while I just kept looking at the stars.
I didn't want to look in his eyes, didn't want to look at his pretty face.

Because even though I wasn't ready for a relationship, I would definitely be ready to kiss him.

"But yeah, Monaco is very expensive and I didn't have money, didn't have parents to sponsor everything I did" I shrugged. "Not like Savannah"

"Right" Lando mumbled, looking up at the sky as well.

"So I worked in a couple of bars before I ended up in the club, Jess taught me everything, because I sucked at making drinks" I chuckled.

"Well.. she did a great job because I absolutely like your drinks" he turned his head to me and this time I made the mistake of looking at him as well.

"Thanks" I mumbled. "I-I like how you race"

What was that? Why did I say that. Embarrassing.

He laughed at that.

"You're cute" he said softly.

And with that, he looked back up at the sky. He didn't ask me about what happened with Jordan. He never did.

Maybe he didn't care, but I think it was mostly because he didn't dare to ask.

And I was too much of a coward to tell him about it. Also too cowardly to ask him how he was feeling, about me. About us.

Did he meet someone else? Did he flirt or even worse, have sex with someone while I was dating Jordan?

Not that I could blame him, I couldn't and I wouldn't, I would just like to know.

Or maybe I didn't.

I honestly didn't know, I was so fucked up.

"Let's go inside, it's getting cold" he said, already getting up and holding his hands out for me.

I held his hands while he pulled me up.

We weren't tired yet, so we decided to watch a movie together, on the couch.

"Can I lay down on you?" I asked, don't judge me on this, I needed to know if he still liked me.

"Uh-yeah sure" he said.

I laid down, put my head on his lap and snuggled up to him.

Now girls, if a guy slightly likes you, or is attracted to you, he will definitely react to your head being so close to his dick.

But Lando didn't react to it. He didn't twitch, he didn't start breathing faster, he wasn't trying to hide his boner because he didn't have one.

He just started brushing my hair with his fingers, while still looking at his television.

I definitely blew my chance by telling him I wanted to stay friends, that I was never gonna trust him.

Stupid. Very stupid.

Didn't even know why I told him that. He was always so nice to me.

But everyone was messing with my mind so I freaked out.

He wouldn't buy me flowers if he didn't like me, right?

Fuck he was giving so many mixed signals, but to be fair, so was I.