[OhmNanon Mafia AU] Melting Ice

Healing.

Nanon could easily say that the past two months of his life had been the best two months ever. It was amazing to the point that the very thought of comparing his previous life, life before that kidnapping, seemed unfair to him.

Korn, whom Nanon was sure must be rolling in his grave by now, wanted to push him into a lifetime of suffering, but had actually ended up bestowing the best things in life upon him.

May his soul never rest in peace.

Had Nanon ever mentioned that Mr. Pawat...Ohm...was really the fruit of all of Nanon's good karma, this life and past. It truly was beyond Nanon's comprehension how in the world did he get so lucky?

Saying that Ohm was the best boyfriend that anyone could ask for would be an understatement because he was so much more than that. There was a time in Nanon's life, a time which he could now dare to look back on with courage, where no one would even ask twice about him if there was no need. It was a time where his functionality dictated his survival.

But now? With Ohm? For the first time in his life Nanon was experiencing the joy of just existing.

Obviously, his past trauma controlled his actions till date. It wasn't something that he could leave behind so easily. But with Ohm and with the Pawat family, one thing he could say for sure was that he had begun healing, slowly and steadily, but he knew he would get there.

Having said that, at the beginning of their relationship, pursuant to his old habits, Nanon had focused a lot of his energy on being functional. He would do random small things for Ohm and his family, which he knew he did not need to, but he did anyway so that they could see that he was not someone useless they were welcoming into their family.

The motive behind his acts of service was not just this. Obviously, he loved these people to pieces and genuinely wanted to do whatever he could for them, but after Ohm and him had started dating, he had just taken it up a notch.

He was already in-charge of P'Mix's health, but now he tried to personally cook and serve all his meals. Aunty Davika got foot massages almost on a regular basis and P'Earth's cookie cravings were always met. He even learnt to clean guns for P'Drake and tried to help P'Perth as much as he could.

As for Ohm, Nanon now took charge of all his basic day to day needs. P'Perth had even commented once that he felt useless because Nanon had taken over his job. Before leaving for University, he always ensured that Ohm's breakfast was done just as he wanted, his files were ready, his clothes in place and that he had a prospect of nice dinner waiting for him when he came back.

Nanon really wanted to do anything and everything for him. Most of that feeling was coming from a place of love, but unfortunately a part of it was his trauma. He knew it in his head, but he still decided to go along with what his past told him, just to be safe. He could not risk losing whatever he had, at any cost.

He was stupid. He could admit that now, but back then he did not even realize what he was doing until one day when Ohm confronted him head on. Apparently, the whole family had been noticing his actions and wanted to have an intervention. That was the original plan, until the topic came up in the bedroom and Ohm took the opportunity to call Nanon out.

Nanon was still got embarrassed when he thought about that night. Ohm had come back home very late and Nanon could tell that he was both stressed and tired. The only solution that Nanon's head came up with was a blow job. He had never done it before, and maybe he was not ready for it, but convinced himself that he had to or what good of a boyfriend would he be.

He offered his services with fake enthusiasm, which Ohm caught onto. Nanon still remembered that his first response was a flash of anger in his clear black eyes but verbally, he just asked Nanon for confirmation, waiting for Nanon to admit for himself that he was not ready.