Poems at 3 am

what did you think?

What did you think back then?
Where you worried for your mum or me?
Did you think of the memories that we could of had?
Or maybe you hugging your mom for one last time?
What did you feel?
Did reality become real?
Did you feel like you were passing away?
Into the void you would say
Did your heart hurt when you thought about what you have done?
When you were still alive after you were gone.
Did it feel euphoric to be at that much control?
Or was it the toxins in your brain that made it feel like it was your decision?
Did they make you listen?
What did you hear on that day?
Me telling you not to go threw it and you pushing me away?
Did you hear the birds chirp as a warning from God?
Did you hear your mom scream because of the blood?
Did you hear your heartbeat on the monitor?
Were you sad because you had one?
You were born with a fucked up life.
You shouldn't of had to pay that price.
You played it cool threw the years.
And let your health crumble threw the tears.
What did you think was going to happen
When your whole life start to blacken?