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6.2. Too late (pt 2)

Lovers perspective;

I fluttered my eyes open and found myself in Rep's arms. I was still a little on edge from the night before, but I felt safe now that she was holding me.

"Morning Love," She greeted, placing a sweet kiss on my forehead. "You slept in, it's ten thirty."

I sighed, still exhausted from only going to sleep at 6 am.

"Want to have breakfast or talk first?" She asked. I exhaled deeply, thinking. I couldn't be bothered to move.

"Talk," I murmured into her shoulder.

"Okay I just want to start off by apologising, so deeply," she placed her head on mine and stroked my hair. "I shouldn't have stormed out to go to the bar and I shouldn't have gotten drunk and I shouldn't have said any of it to you and I especially shouldn't have-"

"Reppy," I chuckled. "Breathe." She nodded, collecting herself and sitting up before starting again. I followed suit.

"I shouldn't have done any of it, but I did, and I can't change that. It was incredibly shitty of me and I hate that I hurt you," she looked upset, and then suddenly I remembered what I said to her.

"I-I, um, I'm also really sorry for what I said. I don't think any of that. You- you're not um, like that. That was uncalled for," I started picking at the skin around my nails and she grabbed my hand gently, holding it between her own.

"It's okay," she said softly. "We both said things that we didn't mean, and we both regret it. Don't worry too much Love."

"I know, I stress too much. I just don't know how not to," I pouted. She slung an arm around my shoulders, pulling me slightly closer to her.

"I get it, life's stressful. I get scared all the time that I'm going to fuck up and lose you,"

"You'll never lose me Reppy," I kissed her softly and she smiled, blushing. I soaked up the moment as I stared into my beautiful girlfriend's eyes, watching her giggle softly. I couldn't resist, kissing her again. She cupped my jaw with one hand, and the kiss wasn't deepened or with any intention, just pure love and affection.

"I love you so much," she whispered. "You have no idea,"

"Trust me, I think I kind of do have an idea," I chuckled. "You only tell me about 20 times a day," 

"Doesn't make it mean any less," She countered. We sat in silence for a few minutes as she played with her rings and I watched, leaning my head on her shoulder. The silence was nice but after a minute or so I noticed Rep's demeanour change, and it made it more awkward. 

"Are you alright Reppy?"

"Love can I ask you something?" She blurted, looking stressed. I nodded comfortingly yet slightly confusedly and she continued to fidget with her fingers.
"When-when I was angry, just before I stormed out, d-did you think I was going to hurt you?" 

"Um," I looked away, shrugging. "A bit. You were just so angry and I know you- well, you sometimes get physical with people, and uh, I guess I just got scared," 

"I feel so shitty," She sunk her head into her hands, groaning. I placed a hand on her back, consolingly rubbing my thumb back and forth. 

"Don't, babe. Realistically I know that you would never hurt me and we both just got caught up in the moment," I said gently. 

"But you thought I was going to hurt you, you wouldn't think that unless you believed that I was capable of getting mad enough that I would ever lay a hand on you,"

"Rep- Reppy.  Calm down. I forgive you, and you need to forgive yourself. You didn't mean it, and you know that I'm just sensitive most of the time," I gently took her hands off her face and pressed a kiss to her lips to show that there were no hard feelings. 
"And I really don't think we need to think about this anymore, so once we leave this room, it's a fresh start for both of us, hmm?" 

"Okay... fresh start as in last night didn't happen?" 

"Exactly that Reppy," 

A/N; This is like 700 words its so short lol 

IMPORTANT; 
I need to say this because I'm overthinking;
when I say that something is shit that's not so that people will tell me that it's actually good (but getting comments like that does genuinely make my day, don't stop <3), it's because I'm not happy with how it turned out and I want to express that. 

Sorry I just really needed to say that because I was overthinking it way too much and it was weighing on me and I needed to get it off my chest (lavender haze reference???)