kayla pov
we just finished eating dinner and i went to wash the dishes. as i washing the dishes i was thinking "maybe i should call him" "na fuck him" "damn i miss him". i just kept thinking so hard about it. "kayla u ok?" eric asked me, i kept looking down washing the dishes " yea im good" i said. he walked back to the living room.
im going to call him but i still dont know wow to feel.
i finished up the dishes and went to the guest room because i didnt feel like driving home. i went into the bathroom and turned on the shower. i turned around and looked myself in the mirror " damn i really love him" i thought.
i got undressed and got in the shower.
- routine skip
i got in bed and turned on netflix on my ipad. i grabbed my phone and clicked fanums contact and called him.
" i miss u but i still dislike u"
"na i know and i miss u too"
"kai called me"
"what he call u for?"
" he told me u been slacking and not eating"
" im good im straight"
"fanum are u okay"
*he sets the phone up*
" no, kinda hate myself for what i did to u and i dont feel like streaming rn"
"fanum dont ever hate yourself, ur not a bad person u just made a mistake a dumb one"
"yea i know"
" so u know what u need to do tmr"
"what"
"stream, u need to stream do what u love doing making content"
" ok when im seeing u tho"
"soon maybe idk but u still need to stream, u know the troupe misses u"
"yea i know, i miss u more tho"
"fanum.... stream im not playing"
"ok ok i will, when u come back to atl"
" i dont know i have to look at flights"
"ill book one for u rn"
"lets slow down for a minute, ill be there soon"
"ok, am i going to see u in a week or in like a few days"
this nigga cannot be deadass right now.
"fanum i dont know ill have to see ok"
"ok let me know"
we talked more and more. i missed him so much, we do need to talk about what he did but thats a more in person conversation.
i like how he know that he did wrong and he owning up to it and not just going to fuck with other girls while i left.
doesn't matter how much i love him, i cant just get hurt again.
