Are we more than friends?

I want to be your dad

I was holding back tears with denki holding my hand and talking to Kiri and asking me if I was ok 100 times. I always responded with a fake smile and nod. It was lunch time and I wanted to avoid everyone so I lied.

S- hey....Azawia...he wanted me to eat with him....alone.

He looked at me sadly.

D- oh....ok...well I'm gonna miss you. Meet me after ok?

He kissed my cheek and I walked away. I went to the class room and opened the door.

A- shinsou...why are you here?

I closed the door. I stood there and I felt my tears falling down my face. He came to me and hugged me I flinched and winced from the bruises. He pulled away.

A- sorry. What happened? Your hurt?

S- I'm fine.

A- no...your not.

I wiped my tears.

A- something happened today. What was it?

I looked at him. I wanted to tell him. I wanted to tell someone. Anyone. But....i couldn't.

S- it's nothing.....and you shouldn't adopt me.

He looked shocked. He sat down.

A- what?

S- I'm...pathetic. I'm worthless. I'm disgusting and I'm undeserving of love or care.

Even though the words came out of my mouth, it didn't feel like me it felt like moanama. He stared at me concerned, and worried like everyone did everyone always looked at me like I was a monster or that I was a hopeless kid who needed to have pity on him. I didn't want to be either didn't want anyone anymore. I just wanted silence for once I wanted to be alone, I wanted to be in a corner by myself for the rest of my life. No one to talk to no one to care just my thoughts open thoughts just my thoughts clear open thoughts no thoughts of hurting or my past or anything just blank. Nothing I want nothing.

A- hitsohi.....I love you.....I care....i want to be your dad. I want you to go to me. I can tell something has happened and I want to fix it.

He sat next to me.

A- you are an amazing person.you know how I know? Well I'll tell you the story. It was a cold rainy day. It was a couple years ago. I was working at my agency as an intern with my friends and present. Mic was one of them. there was a villain on the loose and I was sent with other interns to go catch him. He was a powerful villain had a fire quirk was harming citizens, but then I heard someone screaming, not necessarily screaming from being harmed or scared someone screaming for justice but then suddenly the screaming stopped and it made me worry, so I ran after of the direction that the noise was coming from it was a boy, a little skinny boy with purple hair and pale skin.

I looked at him with surprise.

A- he was on the floor shivering, seemed to be passed out like he hit his head on something so I picked him up and took him to the hospital.eventually the police came and found out where he lived. So I took him to his house where I met a old woman named Izzy very nice. She invited me for tea, but I declined because there was another mission nearby. I've saved many before this incident but something about that boy made something in my Chest  stir something full of hope for the next generations, something that made me smile, knowing that he was safe knowing that he was OK it made me have peace of mind then years later I saw this boy again at UA high school not so skinny anymore but the same messy purple hair and I knew that was the same one that I saved that night and it made me smile. Ever since I saw that boy walking into the UA doors, I made a promise to myself that I was going to protect him. Don't matter the cost that I was going to teach him everything. I knew it cost me my life I was going to sacrifice everything for that boy, just so he knew that he was loved and that he was cared for because each time he smiled it wasn't real and I could see it even when no one else could.......... Shinsou...that boy is you.....you've been my son for years in my eyes.

I sobbed. He hugged me.

A- your perfect.

S- thank you dad.

We sat there for a little. Hugging each other. So this is what a father is. It's nice...but...still...new.

A- you clean your self in the bathroom ok?

S- ok.

I went to the bathroom when I saw kirishima talking to  tamaki.

(Chapter 38 of nervous romance)

I went back to azawia he gave me a sandwich and water.

S- I'm sorry.

A- I want to know what happened. I can tell it was serious. Please shinsou.

S- i....i cant. I just can't.

A- was it a person that made you feel like this?

I stayed silent.

A- who? What did they do? Do I know them?

S- it's nothing. Just leave it.

A- shinsou. Please. Was it denki?

S- no....denki....maybe your right about him.

A- what do you mean?

S- I don't think he loves me.

A- why do you think that?

S- he hasn't told me.

A- maybe he will. Just because someone doesn't say something doesn't mean they don't mean it.

I looked down.

A- do you love him?

S- I think so...

A- you think so?

S- I don't know...

A- you should tell him. Once you're sure of course.

The bell rang.

S- I need to go.

A- ok. I'll see you early tomorrow. Ok.

He hugged me I hugged him back. Hugs are nice. I meet denki after Lunch where he hugged and kissed me. We went back to the dorms where we went to our rooms to study. Not like I could focus much though.