Have You Fallen In Love, Yet? | TK

31.

Day 1

Cheon-Sa visited today and brought me this notebook. She told me to write whatever I want in it but make sure to express my feelings. So, I decided to write short letters for you to read when you wake up. I won't be writing much today because I have a few appointments back-to-back. 

The only thing I need to say is that I love you

- Your Doll

Day 2

I think I have no more tears left to cry. 

I'm laying in the bed/stretcher thingy. I haven't been eating much and everyone's getting upset, as usual. They're like 'you can't just be like this Taehyung. You have to live. You can't just waste your life away.'

But I can't live without you.

I feel dead, Koo

So fucking dead.

I love you

- Your Doll

Day 3

Jimin got me a bikini today. I laughed and cried at the same time. I told him I'm not a girl and he was like 'yeah, you're hotter than girls.' He's been doing a lot for me, never leaving my side for a second. He tries to cheer me up and I do get cheered up but then I remember you again and start bawling my eyes out. 

It hurts so much, Jungkook.

To see you lifeless.

It makes me want to rip my eyes out.

I love you

- Your Doll

Day 4

I was going through my phone today and realized I didn't have enough photos of you.

That made me cry. Again.

When you wake up, we're gonna take like a thousand photos. 

I love you

- Your Doll

Day 5

The urge to get up from this stupid stretcher, run to our house, walk down to the basement and kill that motherfucking bastard is eating me up.

He took you away from me.

He fucking tried to kill us.

I swear to God, the second I get my hands on him, I will kill him so brutally that nobody will be able to recognize him. 

I was thinking, how did Ha-yoon know where we were that day? That made me wonder if someone else was in on it. Helping Ha-yoon with his revenge.

Don't worry, Koo. I'll find them and kill them.

I love you

- Your Doll

Day 6

Your warm hands are always so cold now. The doctors don't let me touch you much, just your hand and some soft kisses.

But they don't know how hard it is for me to keep my hands off you.

Touching is my love language, I tell them.

They just laugh it off.

I love you

- Your Doll

Day 7

Wake up Koo.