Apart

Daisy

"God damn just buzz" Today I am waiting for an important text it is one of the steps I am going to take that will change my life for the better, I keep checking my phone since the morning I am getting all sorts of baloney messages, I have taken my whole household on my head I cannot concentrate on anything or anyone right now. I had the impression that I have lots and lots of patience but I am getting proved otherwise and it buzzed.Paul: Did you get it?Oh god, this waiting game is not for me I want to throw my phone away, Paul is important to me but right now in the given situation, I am waiting for someone else to text me.Me: I will let you know until then don't text.

While I replied I sighed knowing that there was no network issue here I also checked my phone battery was one hundred percent then what was the problem why were they not texting me, I checked my email to find out if not a text then they might have emailed me but nada there. I am sitting on the floor with my legs crossed swinging back and forth like a possessed doll I took my sister's phone holder and placed my phone on it since morning I have been getting all sorts of notifications most of it was from Paul I wish he could have distracted me just like he did on the result day but too bad he has his stuff to work on plus I cannot always rely on Paul to rescue me other than Paul it is mostly Uber eats and thankfully no stalker messages or else I would have been on edge all day. I have enough problems on my own and one lives right in my building although I haven't seen him which is a good thing for me, I don't want anything to distract me. My mother made my favorite breakfast to lighten the mood but it did not help one bit I could not let myself eat one single bite before I got to know where I was going to potentially live. I have always wanted an apartment with a view my whole life goal is to have my own apartment and I understand it is not technically mine but someday I will make that dream come true. "Why don't you go for a walk" my sister suggested, I think that would be best for me I can release all the nervous energy I took my phone and as I was about to step outside the door all the flashbacks came it was not the threats of my stalker but Usher, we used to such close friends as long as I remember we've been together over a decade yet he betrayed me, hurt me not only emotionally but physically too how can I get over that? How am I going to trust anyone after this point? Will I be able to make new friends? I closed the door and came back to square one I have not said anything to my family about this even though they noticed the distance between me and Usher at first it was seeing Paul but now it is a whole different story I don't want to step outside and look at Usher not even for a millisecond, not only our friendship ended but I don't respect him as a human being either.

That is when I got my text. I read my text out loud I didn't want to miss a single word of it, it was subtle they congratulated me for the selection process and my position in the company as a senior editor which I know I can ace on and the next thing was my new address it was also mentioned that I can check out the place right away and that is exactly what I am going to do.

"You want to come with me?" I asked my sister although I had to shout she keeps her headphone on her all the damn time, she needs to stop doing that, or else there would be some serious consequences with a hefty hospital bill on the way. She happily agreed but as always she took her sweet time to get ready I mean it was going to my place why did she have to get all dolled up? I called Uber right away I knew when she knew I already booked the cab she going to fasten her process which worked in my favour. Instead of using the elevator, I insisted on taking the stairs she could not understand why but the only reason I was taking the stairs was that I didn't want to stick in the elevator with Usher at all costs, I could see my sister sweating I don't feel bad for her in fact I am feeling a little bit secure I might be the older one but she can fight and bite back, me on the other am the total opposite I took out my phone and kept a reminder finding self-defense classes I don't think I might have to use those techniques but I would be less stressed about stepping out.