Apart

Daisy

It has been months since I broke up with Paul but the wound he cut so deeply isn't near healing at all in fact it is getting deeper and deeper. "I need you to report me on this tomorrow morning" Rufus came to my desk and left a bunch of topics I needed to clear it with my team, the only good thing about my life right now is my job and my friends which are keeping me sane, all three of them keep trying to get me off out my routine but I am not ready just yet and I don't think so I will ever be ready for this. I loved Paul with all of my heart, we have so many memories together, our little talks, dinners, morning coffee, and whatnot everything just keeps coming back as a flashback and the dagger in my heart goes deeper. I pick up my desk phone and ring all the members at once "Come to the conference room right now" I say and cut the phone, I take all the necessary things required and go ahead. "Alright so now that all of you are here I need to say that we have a bunch of things to do today and I am sorry I guess we might have to stay in the office a little late if it is not done because Rufus wants report tomorrow" Unfortunately not everyone lives are empty as mine as much as I am relieved that I have something to exhaust myself from others thinks in a different path, I hear them sigh loudly I simply say "Boss's order" and move on but before I exit the room I turn around and say "You can do most of the work and the pending I will complete it, so don't worry if you want to go in the usual time you can" The conference room is made of glass so when I said that I saw everyone there was relieved and all the smiles came back but what they don't know is that I am want all the extra hours not because of money but because I want to be so tired that when I go home I straight up fall asleep without thinking of Paul or pitying myself that I fell for his trap. 

I sat on my desk and started working then after a few hours Sally came from behind and said "It is lunchtime" I looked at her and said "I have plenty of things to do" and showed her I meant it, she closed my laptop and "First Lunch then work" Sadly my stomach was my rival here it made such a huge noise that Sally grabbed my hand and took me downstairs, "Where are we going? The cafeteria is that way" I asked her while she was still dragging me "We are going to the restaurant you like" At this point in life I don't like anything but I mentioned once that I would like to try it out and she remembers it thankfully the restaurant is just across the street and ironically it is named as "The restaurant" which I find funny. When we both entered I saw Grace and Monique already for us, we walked up to them and sat in the corner but "Daisy comes sit here" Monique said as she went through the menu and Grace pulled and hand and made me sit in the middle "So what would you like to have?" she asked me but still not giving me the menu to look through it, one thing I know about this restaurant is they have multiple cuisines so I had a safe bet and order rice and some gravy with lemon soda, Grace order her all-time favorite and safe bet pizza with zero coke, Monique as graceful she is she ordered pasta with red wine and Sally order cheeseburger, fries, and sprite. "This table is going to many different types of food on the table," Grace said after she was done posing for the gram, "Definitely, I wonder what the chef would be thinking," Sally said with all the innocence she has and empathy towards me "Forget the chef what would people around us would think" Monique opened her mouth for the snarky comment but when I look around I was thinking the same "I suppose they can enjoy the view of pretty ladies and not the view" everyone looked towards me in shock this was the first time I said something so playful after I parted way with Paul "Our girl is back" Grace screamed and the three of them hugged me tightly I left a smile on my face that was genuine; I suppose I have to learn to live my life somehow and these three beautiful girls are always going to be there for me. Everyone started their own conversation I went to the bathroom and when I came back I stood in the corner looking at them and I replayed the past months in my head. Grace and Monique are staying with me because they said how into Paul and I were and they thought it was going to last but the moment they saw the photo, Grace threw my phone away and both of them hugged and comforted me and since then they both have been staying with me; Grace has been staying with me for the weekends but Monique stayed the whole time and every time I entered the house she was there preparing tea for and the dinner too she has been a big help for me and for Sally although Paul is her brother but she took my side in this situation when I showed her the photo she immediately called Paul and started cursing I guess in friendship department I hit the jackpot. Once I went to the coffee shop and I got Sally and because of her I met these two precious flowers as well I am so grateful for them. But that didn't heal me completely I ate less and slept less too which made them worry a lot but in time things will change I will have to adapt to living alone I can't be a burden to my friends. 

I saw the waiter going to our table with food so I sat down quickly and all of us were eating and having a good time. "Let's go, Sal, I have a lot of things to do" I was done eating my food but Sally kept talking with the others but she didn't respond so I went ahead and texted her that I was leaving. When I went to the office I saw a delivery guy with a package I suppose someone ordered something at the office address and if Rufus sees this he is going to be but that is not my problem I have reported to make and present them in the morning, "This is done" Alisha came up to my desk and showed me that the most of work is done she might be able to finish everything that has to be done today and in a short time the others came to me said the same. "I am going home on time today," I said to myself as I was typing out the report not feeling bad about the work that had to be done asap but I thought I would be able to exhaust myself I guess that is not the option for today. My phone rang I picked it up "Ma'am there is a package waiting for you" the guard said and hung up the phone before I could ask anything, I closed my laptop and headed downstairs when I met with the guard he handed me the package "But I didn't order them" I said but he was gone as I was walking towards the elevator I saw Rufus and he already eye locked my package "I guess there is no going back now" and sighed and walked towards him "A package? You know how I feel about this right?" I don't know whether he asked me or implying it "I know but I did not order it" I said defending myself, he took the package from my hand and said "It is from Paul" My eyes widened as he said "What? how? why?" I asked to myself out loud "What do you mean by why? he is your boyfriend but I am sliding this time but next time I don't want your romance to affect your work" he said with confidence and a little bit of sarcasm "But we broke up then why would he send me this" I was talking to myself but Rufus heard me crystal "You broke up with him? hmmm, I wonder why he beat up that guy then" I slowly turned my head towards him "What guy? What did he do?" I asked him directly "Yeah, wait um.... this guy named Usher? he almost beat him to death but I handled it. Paul was going all about how the guy troubled you he was going to pay for it, anyway, go work now" I nodded and we both went our separate ways but as I was walking I could not help but think why would Paul do that and I connected the dots Usher didn't move on his own it was Paul and Rufus that made it happen, Oh my god this guy is crazy about me yet he chose to cheat on me but why? I opened the package it was a suit from the same store we went to shopping and he had them delivered to me on my 100th day in this office, if he is so thoughtful then why would he do such a terrible thing to me.

I happen to finish my work on time and the others did the same but right now instead of going home I am driving to Paul's house I don't want to marge into his office and create a scene but rather do it in home and talk in a civil manner but it that possible whenever I see his photo or anyone mentions his name my eyes get filled with sadness but no I have to talk to him I want to know the meaning of this suit and why did beat up Usher, if I was just another conquest of him then would he or anyone would go to that measure for the girl he just wanted to use and why would he let a guy make him and his entirely family move for this girl. I drove as fast as I could and I finally reached my destination, I parked outside instead of the usual spot I am no longer with him and I don't expect special treatment for me I came here to find answers and I will not go back until I get them but I was getting out of them and walking towards his house I find myself trembling and short of breath "Not now nerves" I said it out loud and with confidence and marched ahead but I saw Paul in his balcony just sitting I guess I was not in his view but he was clearly in mine I stopped there for second taking deep breathes luckily it was dark so I can move to his room without Sally seeing me or anyone I hope. As soon as I took a step my gut feeling was telling me to run as if there was some danger lurking in me but my legs would not cooperate, with everything that had been going I forgot this feeling but it came back and not in a good time, I slowly turned my head around to look if someone is actually behind me and there he was. in full black mask fully covered but just the eyes has the opening and he struck a needle onto my neck, the suit fell down and so did I. 

"Why" These were the only words that left my mouth before my eyes shut.