Apart

Daisy

Anxiety is going to kill me I have written and given many exams before and my grades in previous papers are going to get me a nice paying job I veridically ace this too. I have done many all-nighters in the past few days so much so that I haven't been communicating with Paul frequently I feel awful doing that but this is equally important to me I have been dreaming of finally becoming independent for as long as I can remember I can't let anything or anyone come between my dreams. Stress also distracted me from the jerk face from the party and he hasn't been contacting me either I said it would be some loser texting but it still doesn't explain the video and his last text. I choose to ignore all my demons right now I am one step closer to everything I ever wanted for me. I drank 3 cups of coffee I can't or cannot feel sleepy when in the examination hall I have to be focused.

My paper is at noon but Paul wants to meet me and given so I didn't meet him after the party; I look around and see all my books scattered on the floor the walls are covered with sticky notes my hands are covered in ink and my hair is a mess. I take a shower and put on simple jeans and a top I feel fresh because I finally showered after I don't even remember the last I showered all thanks to my finals but once it is over I take a breath of relief and start looking for a job. I head towards the coffee shop and there I see Paul patiently waiting for me he has already placed the order for the both of us I come from behind and cover his eyes."Guess who" I teasingly ask."My kitty" he answers, anytime he uses my or mine my cheeks start to turn red. those are common words but it feels so much more to me especially when it comes from him.

I kiss him on the cheek and sit in front of him. "So you ordered waffles and shakes" I speak eyeing the food in front, I am hungry but why would he ask for shakes and not coffee? "I know you are probably wondering why shake and not coffee, I know you must be caffeinated yourself by now and these because you have your paper and I can't let you starve in there". He was right I had 3 cups at home, How can someone know me better than me but Paul is not someone I love this little idiot; Plus I added Paul to my motivation list I know he loves me but I want to have a better future with him, he could've any girl but I am the one sitting here touching him, holding his hands and only I can say that Paul William is in love with me I am not comparing myself to others but he is an extra inspiration."Are you truly prepared?" I see lines forming on his forehead.

 "Yes, nothing can stop me from acing this," I say with confidence.

"I know but today is economics" he holds my hand he knows economics is my weakness.

"Baby I know I have worked much harder on this than any other subject" I assure him with a smile.

He takes my hand and kisses it, I know it is a very sweet gesture but right now sweet is not coming into my mind I want him I mean all of him all over my body, He smirks knowing what is going on in my mind I swear this minding reading thing of his is annoying. He then starts playing with my fingers and I span back drinking my shake, he waves his hand in the air showing a sign of backing down, and prepares to cut the waffle into pieces, if you think a man cooking the sexiest thing be prepared to see him chopping your food into pieces while you sit back and watch him. He is done with my breakfast and starts eating his "Stop inhaling your food" I yell at him but that doesn't bother him and continues he finishes eating in five freaking minutes, he then stares at me I am still having my shake and it is only halfway down I relatively choked on the shake Paul grabs a napkin from the counter and wipes the spilling with a bottle of water. "That is enough for now and eat" he grabs a fork and starts feeding me I don't know how I managed to have a great guy like Paul. I hear some chattering from a girl on the other table. "Can you believe? he is feeding her" One of the girls is whispering to her friend but they are not very discreet about it". "She must be really good in bed" a friend of her chats back, "I wonder what will Jenny do to that girl, doesn't she know Jenny and Paul are soul mates?" Paul hears them too his ears are twitching and his face turning red he stands with his fast turning into a fist "Paul no stop" I try to stop him but he doesn't listen. He marches towards them turns the chair and sits in front of them, both of the girls have their eyes open expansively, I think he is going to burst his anger but what I see is completely different he takes their coffee cups and brings them close to their lips and says "Go ahead have a sip" both of them look at each other and does what he says Paul seductively commanding voice "Now what were you saying about my girl?" he asked placing the cups down "We are sorry, we have heard about you and your reputation and of course Jenny" they reply drily "That was past we al move maybe you should two too right?" he smiles as he speaks he pulls their cheeks and came back to me.

The guy everyone seems to describe is totally different from the Paul I know. Have I made him do this, he is so considerate, he is so damn caring so much so he makes sure I eat meals on time and stay hydrated if I am ill he brings me to the doctor and my medicine, walks me to my house every single time, texts me all the time, expresses his feelings openly, keeps me safe and doesn't feel embarrassed to show me off to the world.

"What happened to you?" his lips partly open"I thought you were going to argue with them" I reply dryly"I am not that guy anymore kitty," He says with a smile on his face"Can I ask why is that ?" I can see the changes in him but can't believe it with my eyes."It is all because of you" He kissed me on my temple as he spoke."What?" I jerked back."Yes, I didn't really care about anything in this world, I used to drink and smoke endlessly, sleep around with any girl I could, I didn't even think what I should do in the future, I used to stay out late every other night but since you came in my life I want to do anything and everything I have never done before I want to make my self a better man for you I did all the things in past but I love spending time with you whether it'd be strolling through the park or staying up all night texting you or making sure you are healthy. I used to be like a tornado destroying everything in my way anything I touched used to turn into dust but you have completely changed me I am calmer I feel like a breeze just flowing and having the time of my life". 

I can keep listening to him but it is almost time for my exam I ask Paul to drop me off he opens the door for me and just stands there I wonder why is he just standing here like this "Are you dropping me or should I take a bus?" I ask him while making sure I have everything I need "I am not dropping you" he smirks, why is he smirking "Okay I'll see you later okay I guess the bus will come soon" I wave to him goodbye as I am about to step in the opposite direction Paul pulls me from my wrist and says "Where are you going ?" I am confused did he lose his mind we both have our paper so why is he doing this right now? He takes a key out of his pocket and hands me "What is this?" I ask him "It is keys to your car" he smiles "What? what do you mean?" I am still confused, he points to the Tesla car parked in front of us and unlocks the car "Wait what you got me a car? this must be expensive I can't accept this" I am in a hurry but I really can't accept this even though it is a nice gesture I still can't do that I know Paul doesn't have income at least not that I know of "I know you might be thinking I spent my parent's fortune but no I have some saving I used to play in a club and I bought this for you, please accept it kitty" he didn't beat around the bush and straight came to the point about the money he spent, I can't believe he did this for me this is such a nice gesture from him, I was reluctant at first Paul wore me down and I accepted the car.

Luckily I found a parking place not too far from the hall I ran up the stairs and my phone buzzed but I didn't check and kept my phone inside my bag. I was shown to sit and started the paper there was pin-drop silence here which did not work in my favor I have always studied with background noise but I can expect them to make an exception for me I saw a clock hanging on the wall and thankfully I am sitting on the front row I focus on ticking sound and start to write my paper. Usually, the paper is 3 hours but I completed it in 2 hours 40 minutes I went through my paper again making sure I wrote everything in detail I can't afford to fall back not right now. I handed my paper to the examiner she could tear me out with the glare she gave me I walked towards my car my legs were trembling why was she looking at me like that did I write something? I wrote everything I knew I hoped I get the result I was hoping for, I connected my phone to the music system, still not checking the text I received I knew Paul had his exam too he might have not finished it so I headed home. After reaching my house I took out my phone to text Paul to know about his paper but something else caught my eye. 

Unknown: All the best. I opened the notification it was a text from the same maniac with a photo attached of me in my car.  He hasn't contacted me in a week then why now? I can hear my heart pumping in my ear I want to end this nonsense as soon as possible but I cannot get Paul involved in this or he will harm him and I don't want that. I am despondent in my mind to text him back but If I do this will continue and even if I don't he will keep appearing in my life whenever he wants.  I finally texted him. 

Me: Meet me.

Unknown: I can spell separation.

Me: What do you want from me?

Unknown: Still can't figure it out?

Me: Just spill it.

Unknown: I want you. Period.