Apart

Daisy

Never again, I am awake but my whole body is numb "Why did I have to drink so much" I run my hand over my temple I don't remember much of what happened last night but I know for sure I did not Uber myself here. What if my stalker was the one who dropped me here, Am I supposed to say thank you to him? But when I think of it I don't know for sure if it was him or Sally or some guy who is so kind that he dropped me at my place. All of these thoughts are spinning in my head as if it wasn't already I need to get out of bed I need to start my day I scoot the comforter from me and see I am still wearing my last night's clothes so whoever the person was here last night had the decency to not touch me without my consent my lips gives a curve by itself. Okay, I really need to get up now I cannot waste my time sulking in bed I look to the side it is completely empty which reminds me of Paul I really wished to spend my first night here with him but he was busy so damn busy that he did not call me or text me the entire day, is it possible that he forgot about yesterday? or is he simply ignoring me? I know his past and it does not color a very bright picture but since we got together I saw how much effort he is putting into this relationship and on himself but what if he is going back to his past ways? After every step that we are taking we are so close to achieving everything is he going to maintain distance from me? I never suspected of any of his conquests but recently we have been a bit distant because of our work which has not begun yet if this is how things are going to go then what will the future hold for us?

I put my foot down and something hit my foot I looked down and saw it was a bucket "What is it doing here?" I question myself I know for a fact that I did not place this here and I never imagine to put a dustbin bucket next to me my entire life, I kicked the bucket I am already frustrated my Paul's action recently and now this, it is not my very lucky day I suppose. I wish to take a vacation from this hangover, previously when I used to drink I made sure I was not sloppy drunk enough but with Sally, Grace, and Monique I got carried away. Apart from me was drinking for my till now milestones and another part was drinking because I was mad at Paul for not meeting and spending the night with me yesterday I can say that drinking when angry can result in world worse hangover also kicking everything in your way. I am spreading my cover now I want to check if he texted me or not and I find it next to my side table with a note attached it has written "You look so cute when you are asleep my kitty" with a heart drawn on it, who was the maniac who was here last night my heart is beating fast there are only two people in this world who calls me that one the love of my life and other who forced himself on me and gives me a nightmare. Sadly I cannot recognize the handwriting my eye are too dry to keep my focus on this I tossed the note and checked my phone "Fuck" my lips mouthed the word I saw there are a number of missed calls from Sally and text too, all of them were bout where I was and how long is it going to take me to come back from the washroom. I am trying to remember when was I going to the washroom I don't recall leaving them at first it was about acting like a mom with them but I let loose later on the washroom was nowhere near my memory I checked through notification still no text or call from him this is just making me more paranoid about him having no interest in me I checked on other apps and see I had sent him a video which embarrassing in every way but it was clear that I was mad at him I had even mentioned it in the video yet he was a no show I am holding my phone tightly enough to bend it I throw it on the other side of the bed and my fist is on the verge of punching something or someone in particular. Having a stalker who drops me off and has the decency to not touch me is better than having a boyfriend who does not care about my well-being at all. 

I am furious now but I also need to fresh up immediately I went in and freshened up and I walked out of the shower another feeling consuming me, all I had to yell at my sister to get out so I could change but now even if I walk naked there is on one here I can do as I feel as however I wish, I changed and placed the bin at its place. I took the note and kept it inside my drawer I still don't know who is the person who wrote this and placed me here I can't find my bag anywhere near me and right now that is my priority, all my cards are in there. As I was about to walk out I noticed another note on the door saying "You finally changed didn't you?" I look back I am not sure if I noticed this note here but no one was here, is someone in my house? When I was bathing this bastard came out of his hiding and wrote this "This is not funny at all" I screamed and tore the note, the previous note was not scary but this one scared me a pinch. I walked out of my room and saw another note on my glass wall mentioning "I hope you don't have a hangover but I kept something for you in the fridge" Now I know someone kept it before leaving my place I did not hear from my stalker for a while and that person possibly don't know about this place so he is out the question if not he then who would it be? but this note says to go to the fridge so I head there and when I open it I see packed food when I saw what was inside it was Haejangguk with some side dishes I stood there and thoughts about it. My stomach growls and thoughts are out of my mind I put in the microwave and see another note "2 minutes is enough kitty hope you like it" Well.... I was about to throw it away I did not know if I should trust this note guy but my empty gut wanted something in it and my stomach won that battle, I am still figuring out who wrote this I know I have security here so no one can come by as they want and my list of people to let them includes Paul and my mother.