white-passing- jamal turner

twenty-eight

After extensive discussion and tracking, we ended up on a music video set. We didn't even need ID or anything. We just walked on. Jamal went ahead with his plan to get a picture of Father Goose while the girls and I sat outside. 

It was super hot, so we were all fanning ourselves. I put my hair up too because it was starting to stick to my skin. 

"I wonder if Jamal got the pic yet," I said, checking my phone for the thousandth time.

"What pic?" Jasmine said. 

"Ok, what's going on with you?" Monse said.

Jasmine sighed, "It's Ruby! I think he likes me, and I like him, but- I can't let him in."

"Oh my god," Monse said, "You're pulling a Monse."

"No offense, but I'm offended!"

"I don't get it. If Ruby's into you, why don't you just go for it?" I said, "I mean, you've been after him for years."

 "Because he was safe," Jasmine said, "I knew that all the love I was putting out was just gonna bounce back to me!"

"But why is that a good thing?" I said.

"You don't get it," she said, "You're happy with Jamal."

"Yeah, your guys' relationship is literally perfect, and it's kinda scary," Monse said.

 I laughed, "Far from it. We're happy, but it's not perfect. Nothing ever is."

Jasmine sighed, "But for real, no one's ever told me they have feelings for me. But Ruby though, he's always had power over my heart. And I just don't need him shitting on it!"

I'd known Jasmine for a long time, but this was the first time I saw a human side to her. I liked that side.

"Ruby wouldn't do that."

"You don't know that," Jasmine said, "And what if he's only into me because of my brand?"

Monse and I looked at each other, "Have you considered maybe being more subtle with your branding?"

"Like taking it down a notch, or ten?" I said. 

"So, he knows that my vag has never been smashed? Puh LEASE!"

"WHAT?!" Monse and I both said. This was absolutely shocking, "No shit!"

"Girl, I haven't even been fingered. By anyone else."

"Then how do you know so much about sex?" I said. 

"I masturbate," she said shyly, "A lot."

Monse and I laughed, "You and Ruby are the perfect match."

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Next thing I know, the girls and I are in these hideous food costumes. Monse was pizza, Jasmine was either a sloppy joe or a burger, and I was french fries.

"I'm actually kinda excited, but I can't even enjoy it because my chonies are all up in a bunch over the D!" Jasmine said.

"You need to stop thinking about Ruby and start focusing on you."

"Can we get some water over here?" I said, touching my sweaty forehead. I was sweating in so many places I didn't know I could sweat.

"I want Ruby to want me, but only if he actually wants me!"

"In our relationship, I always get what I want, but I make him think it's his idea," Monse said, "Like a Jedi mind trick."

I smirked, "For me, it's like taking care of a child. You know you're right and that they won't listen to you, so you gotta let them have their little tantrums and episodes until they realize you were right all along!"