Shattered Reflections

Chapter 30

I think we are waiting for an ending where Kai comes back, yay, or maybe an alternative ending where Fae girlbosses her way and moves on. No. This is real life. Things happen suddenly, even with no reason, and we don't always get answers either. And this, this is my life.

There's no fairy tale conclusion here. No grand gesture or heartfelt apology to tie everything up neatly. Just a mess of emotions and unanswered questions. Kai, the guy who I thought could be something real, turned out to be just another disappointment. His coldness, his distance, it all hit me like a fucking truck. And you know what? It hurts. It fucking hurts.

I spent so much time blaming myself, wondering if I had done something wrong. Maybe I should have texted more, tried harder. But why the fuck should I always be the one to make the effort? Why did I have to bend over backwards just to keep him around?

Kai was the one who changed, not me. He was the one who decided I wasn't worth his time anymore. I kept trying to hold on, to make things work, but it was like grabbing at smoke. Every time I thought I had a hold on him, he slipped through my fingers.

I think about all the nights I spent crying myself to sleep, wondering what I could have done differently. But the truth is, it wouldn't have mattered. He didn't care enough to make it work. He didn't care enough to stick around. And that's on him, not me.

I tried to convince myself that I could fix him, that I could be the one to change him. I thought my love could be enough to heal whatever was broken inside him. But instead, he ruined me. He took every bit of love I had to give and left me empty. I was emotionally abused, and I mistook it for affection.

So no, there's no perfect resolution here. No moment where Kai comes back and we live happily ever after. Just me, waiting for the boy who ruined me to come back or atleast wish me a happy birthday in August, unless he forgot...