Diamonds For Dinner.

Chapter 2

After the gym class, I took a bath at the gym and refreshed my makeup, before getting out of the gym because I knew, there were paparazzi waiting outside. I stepped outside and walked past everyone and got into my Range Rover, I thought about going home but then I felt the need for a drink, I took a U turn and headed to the nearby coffee shop, the paparazzi weren't there, I suppose they thought I went home, I got out of my car and I headed in the coffee shop, upon getting in, my jaw dropped, there sat Brad with his ex, hand in hand, and they didn't even notice me, they were looking too deep into each others eyes, I couldn't shake off this feeling, I felt so jealous, I wanted to murder this woman on the spot. As much as I want to do that, I went to the bathroom of the coffee shop and I took out my hat and my wig, I always kept a wig and a hat in my bag, because sometimes I wore those to hide myself from the media when I didn't wanted anyone to recognize me, my hair were long, dark brown but the wig was blonde and short, the hat was big enough to hide half my face, and my sunglasses were big enough to hide the rest. I wore it all and stepped outside the bathroom, I took the seat nearest to Brad and his ex, I could hear them clearly from there, it's funny how they didn't notice because they looked at me when I sat but that was only for one second I suppose, they looked away thinking I was just another stranger in the shop, I opened the menu and gave my order and take out my phone to look busy, but I am not.
''I love you, I love you'' Brad told his ex.
"But why should I believe you Brad, you're still with that bitch and you people are dating" she said frowning.
"Babe, I'm only doing this for us, once I get my hands on her money, I'll leave her at the spot and we'll have our happy ever after" Brad said bluntly.
"You love Landla, right?" She asked coldy.
"Of course not, Love, I only love you! I loved you from the start and I'll always love you, I am doing this for us baby and once I'm finished doing my job, we'll get married and live happily" He told her, looking so deep into the eyes.
"I can't wait anymore Brad, get your act together, it's been two years, get hold of her money already" She told him and then continued
"So where is Lana now, I mean how did you get away and meet me here?" She said smirking.
"She's probably at the gym" Brad told her.
"Okay, good" She smirks again at him and the waiter brings their order.
The waiter handed me my order too, I payed for it and took it with me outside and got in my car with my coffee, I rode my car a few miles, I stopped it and took off my wig, hat, & sunglass. I saw my face in the mirror and my eyes were red, I cried alot, I had been crying since I heard what Brad said.
I was insane enough to think he loved me, I mean honestly I love him, still. I don't want to, I don't know why, part of me tells me I'm foolish to fall in love with that man, part of me praises me to fall in love. Which part do I believe?
I cry sitting alone in my car. Wondering what did I do wrong.
It had been an hour since I had been crying but I wanted to cry more, I wanted to n to cry out all the things which never were true, maybe if I was still that broke girl, someone would have loved me for real, because I had nothing to give someone except love and that's the only thing someone else should love you for.
Now it was different, I had money & fame and now people wanted that, they didn't wanted my love, they wanted materialistic things, but Brad had love, just not for me
I'm cried, drowning in my thoughts.
I gather all the strength and start the car again and go to my mansion, I parked my car and got out, breathe fresh air and went inside and changed my clothes, I finished my crying but my eyes were still red and puffy, and my heart was still broken and my thoughts were still shattered.
He can't do this, he can't do this, he can't do this.
After all, I thought he was a diamond
My subconscious tells me.
But sometimes diamonds are not real, because it takes millions of years for diamonds to form, yet some claim to be in a matter of minutes.
Still deep in thoughts, I stop.
I stop myself to think about him, forget him Lana.
I'm struggling to not think about him, and I'm losing this fight.
I walked up to the kitchen and took a glass a water and then I sat down.
Still in my thoughts, my phone starts to ring.
I hope it's not him, I might be a good singer but not really an actor.
I look at the screen and it's my manager, thankfully.
"Hi" I blurted out.
"Hello, Lana, You'll be so happy to hear this and guess what? I just got a call from Chanel & they want to hire you for an exclusive photoshot, of their new spring collection!" He yells in the phone, I can see he's quite excited.
"Oh wow John, that's very unexpected, I'm really excited, when is it?" I say smiling, even though I know I'm not really happy.
"The photoshot starts on 28, it's 21 now so relax and make sure to have your gym and facials, we don't want to look like you're any less than an model" He said giggling.
"Haha Okay John, Bye & Thanks for the good news, Later" I said to him, making sure I sound the most happy I could because I knew inside I was still thinking about what happened earlier and it wasn't a happy feeling at all.