Diamonds For Dinner.

Chapter 9

''I think honesty, riding is like an art. Its an amazing art. I love it when the wind hits your face and you feel so clam and focused on what you're doing, almost for that moment you forget everything else that is happening in the world. Like a moment of your very own, its all yours'' I explained to James while we were on our way to his country home. The ride seemed very beneficial for both of us. I really got to him better. I am sure he got to know me better as well. There was always a look of charm in his eyes. Almost seeming as if he had stars in his eyes. James was in his 20s as well. We were both young and ready for new experiences.

The driver stopped the car in the garage, it was a big home or maybe I should say it was a massive house, bigger than my house. I was staring it in all its glory and thinking about how beautiful it was there. The sun was hitting my face and everything was covered in sun shine, there were 2 cars in the driveway. They were both classics, James explained to me that they always stood there and he occasionally drove them too. He held my hand and we walked towards the back of the house, when my eyes first saw the scenery. I was speechless. It was like a ranch. There was a stable and there were horses, hens and even a cow or two. He told me his favorite horse was Vesper, He was a white horse and more beautiful than you'd imagine. James called out the housekeeper and asked him about lunch preparations. Standing there, I realized how commanding he was and somehow seemed so attractive while he did it, it was as if the man knew exactly what he wanted and he would swim seven seas to get it, by then I never had a chance to realize whether his commands could mean harm. I always felt protected around him even if he was the one I should be protected from. We sat on the wide terrace of his mansion and ate burgers. It felt like a dream. Everything was so perfect, the world seemed so happy or my perspective about it changed the world for me.

As soon as we finished the burgers, we got up and went down stairs, even while we were in the house James would hold my hand as if I was a little child, always lost. We went to the backside and James picked up two pails  and pointed two empty ones for me to pick, next thing I knew was that we were filling them with horse food. As we turned around, the horse trotted towards us and we put the pails on the ground and retrieved to give the horses space to eat comfortably.

'So what do you think?' James asked me

'I think its beautiful, its so peaceful, its just a really nice environment, like a peaceful runaway' I blurted out

'I come here sometimes when life doesn't seem right' He told me getting sentimental

' And this why you come here today?' I asked him

'No, I just wanted to show you that if nothing is right and you have nowhere to go, you can come here, It'll be our little secret place where we throw the pain away and celebrate our happiness but it'll only be between me and you, like our little runaway'

'I like that' I said while I smiled 

'Me too' He smiled back 

'So are you ready?' James asked me with a smirk. 'For what?' I asked him getting confused. 'The best part of coming here, going horse riding, I'll take Vesper and you can take Judy, she's really friendly and I can tell she doesn't hate you since you fed her' James said with a chuckle

'Oh Alright, this will be a good experience' I replied back

'Hopefully'

He patted Vesper on the back while he touched his nose with Vesper's. I stood there, amazed at the beauty of Vesper. Never had I ever seen an animal so beautiful. He got up on Vesper in the blink of an eye. I was still standing there, astonished. I collected all my thoughts and realized this was the part where I get up on a horse so I turned around and patted Judy in the same manner as James and then got up and settled. For the first few moments I was silently praying that Judy doesn't hate me and make me fall off but I was wrong and James was right, she didn't hated me. The horses started moving and the wind starting feeling like a strong breeze, we went for a ride around the ranch, soon enough it started getting dark but we were still sitting on the horses. I could feel as if the horse was getting weary because of me so I got down and so did James.

'We should leave' I commanded him

He checked his clock and called out 'Its just 7 right now'

'but still 30 more minutes and we're off to go, alright?'

'Alright, ma'am'

We walked around the ranch for a few minutes. It was dark and James's foot hit the empty pail which made him imbalance and he fell to the ground. 'Ouch!' He called out. 'Are you okay?' I asked him.'Yeah I am fine' As he rested his back against the ground. ' Are you planning to spend our night with the grasshoppers?' I scaristically asked him. 'No, lay down with me, you'll see something' 'Are you sure? I think I'll only see a bunch of grasshoppers more closely' I made another scaristic remark. 'I'm sure'. I got down and lay on the grass next to him, the ground was warm and kind of cosy, I have to admit I felt so tired when I got down almost as if the weight of the world was taken off my shoulders. 'Do you see it?' He asked me 'Yeah' I replied back. It was beautiful. From down there, the whole galaxy seemed like a giant star. A few minutes into star gazing, I felt so protected, it was by far the best feeling I've ever felt in so many months from getting broken to getting fixed.He was there with me, his presence made me feel no absence, at that moment, I recalled saying I love you to James at our date but it never seemed real but when I said, I never felt ready to love him, in the back of my mind I always had Brad, I was scared of feeling broken but I wasn't scared anymore of that pain to come around again, the fear was gone because at that moment I realized I conquered it. I was ready to love James and love him more than I ever could. I wasn't scared of heart break because I knew whatever would happen between us was because I allowed it to happen, and I wanted it, I wanted these moments, without him, this feeling would've never came along,  to me,it was worth the heartache.
James put his arm around me and we stayed there as if we lost track of time. At 8, we left the country home. James put his jacket around me on that cold night as we drove back and had our first kiss together.I felt a shiver in my whole body as I entered my Mansion, this must be how its felt when in love, I thought.