I wish that I could wake up with Amnesia...

7 - "Get your shucking klunk together"

Newt and I were walking and talking together, through the Glade. "So what's going on between you and Luke?" Newt asked me.

"Nothing," I said quickly, almost too fast. "He's annoying," I added to reassure him. I looked at him, and I couldn't tell if I had convinced him.

"Apparently Luke failed at everything except what we do - Med-Jack, but we had too many so they put him as a cook. I'm sure he likes you," Newt said. I didn't look at him, but I could hear him smiling.

"I'm also the only girl here - I'm not going to think much about it."

"What do you mean?" Newt asked me.

Shuck. I didn't want Newt thinking I wasn't interested in him. "I just want to be treated like anyone else here," I said quickly.

"Oh, okay," Newt said. "Has everyone been treating you normally? If there's a problem, just let me know."

"Okay," I said. "Thanks."

As we walked together, our hands bumped each other. "Sorry," I heard myself say, as if it was my fault - but it just happened. It wasn't my fault.

"No." I heard Newt say, and I felt him slip his hand in mine. "So, yesterday you asked me a question."

"O-oh, that, yeah...uh.." Get your shucking klunk together, Jenessa. If Newt can be calm about holding your hand, you can be calm about holding his. "About thinking people in the Glade look familiar?"

"Yeah."

"Yeah, what about it?" I was hopeful, like maybe he has recognized people before too. That I was completely normal.

"Did you want to say why you asked that?" Newt asked. 

Nope. I'm not completely normal. "I don't want to say why," I said. "Because you'll think I'm jacked."

"I can keep a secret, you know." Newt smiled at me. My heart stopped, and my breathing became irregular.

Focus, Jenessa. You can handle this.

"You better," I said, laughing a little. "I'm not normal, Newt. And it's bothering me."

"I can imagine being the only girl in the Glade would be hard, but it's going to be okay."

"No, it's not that," I said. "Newt, you can't let Gally find out. Or anyone."

"Jenessa, trust me. I won't tell anyone." Now he was looking at me, standing straight in front of me. It was dark, but I could still feel his eyes looking into mine.

"Well...I knew Luke, Calum, and Ashton. I don't know why, but I knew their names before they told anyone. And then Luke just up and gets a flashback, and says that the three were in a band, and now he's singing songs...and then Ashton knows us too - he says I'm his sister. And Calum doesn't remember any of us."

"Woah, woah," Newt said. "Ashton is your brother?"

"I guess, but I didn't know that. Why don't I know that?"

"This is a lot to grasp," Newt said. "What in the bloody klunk are they doing here if they were in a band? Then again, maybe we're all important people. Shuck - Alby could be the buggin' president, and he's basically dead."

"Well, Alby's not 35...is he?"

"Well, probably not." We were in the deadheads, and Newt sat down and laid back. "Come here." He patted a spot beside him.

Like, right beside him.

"Okay," I said quietly, and collected myself and laid down next to him. Our bodies were touching, and he had his arm around me, my head on it as if it were a pillow. 

"You're lucky," Newt said. "I wish I could recognize people. I bet you don't feel so alone here now."

"I mean," I said, "I don't mind meeting new people. And I've never recognized you, but you..." What was I even saying? "You don't make me feel alone."

"Yeah, but you have a shucking brother here."

"What if he's lying?"

"Really?" Newt asked me. "Why would someone here lie about being your bloody brother? If anyone were to lie, they would say they were your shucking boyfriend."

"Okay," I said. "Good point."

"Do you want to know a secret, Jenessa?" Newt asked me.

My heart started racing. Like, I could hear it, and I was hoping Newt wouldn't hear it too. "Yeah, sure."

"See those stars?" He pointed up at them. "I think they're fake."

"Oh." That was hardly a secret, Newt.

"And I like you. Which is bad, because you want to be treated like everyone else."

What.