Sorry ( Killugon )

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It was five days gon was black out. Unable to see her grand son's condition, abe got a sudden heart attack. Doctors tried but abe passed away. It will be hard for gon to take.

On the other hand Killua was fighting with his will to go and visit gon but whenever he decides, those bad memories come to his mind and he hesitates to go again. Alluka noticed something was up because Killua was eating properly for five whole days also he got bags under his eyes so he didn't sleep well too.

" Onni-chan are you sick? " alluka asked standing in front of Killua.

" Huh!!.. no.... I'm just- nevermind, don't think about it. I'm okay " killua said sadly patting her head. Killua sighed deeply.

Alluka knows what was up with him. Why he was so sad.

" If you really think it's your fault, isn't it your responsibility to feel him better. You know, you can go to him.... it's nothing that bad " Alluka said sitting next to Killua. This startled him a bit.

" Huh!!! What are you talking about? I said I'm fine and I said you that he doesn't like me so if I go to him, he will not let me get near to him "

" But how can you say so surely. It's almost 5 months you two haven't saw each other. He will surely feel better if you go. After all, he is your first best friend " alluka said and I just nod hanging my head down. It was not long for him to break down. He cried and Alluka hugged him.

" Onni-chan..... everything will be alright again " alluka this time, acted like a mother to her big brother.

" I-I just can-t forg-ive my-myself that he- " he can't talk anymore he break down more and Alluka trying to calm him down, telling sweet things on his ears. In the last Killua calm down. They hugged.

" Alluka, can you give me some time. I want to stay some time alone " killua said with a shakey and cracking voice.

" It's okay but - NO CUTTING, OKAY!! " Alluka said loud and Killua nodded. Some hours passes and Killua was better. It was near 7:30 in the night.

" Alluka, I'm going out somewhere. Would you mind me going? " I asked polightly in which she replied she wouldn't find if I go so I get out of the hotel and started walking to the direction of the hospital.

The visiting hour was over so he got some problems to enter. In the last, he uses his nen to hide his presence and slowly entered the hospital. It was lucky for him that the receptionist was not these so he can see the room number of gon.

" where is gon's room? " he unsteadily look through the pages and in the last he found it.

" Yay!! Found it..... let's see...... gon's room is ...... What!! 6789...... how much big is this hospital "killua murmured.

I quickly went to the lift and clicked for the top floor button. I waited for 5 minutes. After that I reached to the top floor and also i didn't had to search. Gon's room was the 3th room. When I stand in front of the door, my heart was pounding very fast.

Is he alive? I'm I ready to see him? All bad questions came to my mind but i pushed it all..... forcefully. I slowly opened the door, seeing the angel, the light of my life was peacefully sleeping. I slowly closed the door and walked to the bed, sitting next to the bed. I saw his heart was going up and after that it came down. I was glad that he was alive. A tear of relief roll down my cheek.

" Is his warmth of touch the same as past " I thought. I wanted to hold his hand. It started to beat more fast when my hand was about to hold his hand and I DID IT. I hold his hand and obviously it was the same. The second I intertwine our fingers, my whole body relaxed in an instant.

On the other hand gon started to get senses.

" Is something holding my hand..... wait my fingers are intertwine with something and .- the presence feels of similar " gon thought hard.

" Wait!!..... could it be "
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" Killua "

Gon tried to speak but he was only able to say

" K-kill..ua "

Killua thought gon was sleeping dreaming about him...... no wait!! He is dreaming about- ME..... out of everything. Killua wanted to do something for a long time and he can never do it because he isn't that brave and this moment was absolutely mine. Gon is sleeping so if i did it now...... he will never know.

Killua's heart started to beat more and more and fast. He lowered his face to gon's level and he closed his eyes. The thing after that was their lips touched. The kiss was short but Killua will never forget it.

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" did he just........ no.... it nothing. He not feel the same... killua is not gay like me-... but the presence, the touch feel so same " gon thought. He didn't want to loose this time. He gathered all his remaining power to sit up and he did.

When he opened his eyes, the room door was opened and the cheir was next to his bed so...... someone had to be here sometime before. Could it be him.

Gon thought as he collapsed in the bed sheet again. Thinking about Killua crying, gon again fall asleep. Killua, on the other hand, was running to his apartment crying.

" Now he thinks me a disgusting person and hates me " killua thought as his tears started to roll down more.

Killua entered to our my room and started crying. I just don't know but I feel so broken from inside and it hurts like hell.